还有70多天。。。

还有70多天。。。。

我很怕，不懂要怎样才好。。。

我知道我枢要读书。。。

但是，最近很多事情发生。。。

觉得很累。。有一点的不开心。。。

我发现，我不能相信我身边的人。（有一些啦，不是每一个都不能相信的。）

为什么呢？他们真得不能保守秘密吗？我那么相信你们，你们就这样对我。。。

咳。。。。

不想再说了。。想起来都不开心。。。。

算了吧。。。

不明白。。。

我不知道，

我怎么了。。。

我觉得很晕。。。。

很多东西都不明白。。。

不明白事情什么会这样。。。

不明白为什么是我。。。

不明白为什么我哥是这样的人。。。。

不明白为什么我觉得很累。。。

不明白为什么我钻心不到。。。

。。。。

这个世界一定要这样的吗？我不明白。。。。

当我以为我已经度过这个事情，

你跟我说，我错了。。。。

这些全部都是梦而已。。。

为什么？为什么！！！！

你觉得很好玩吗？

我觉得一点都不好玩。。。。。

一点都不好玩。。。

a day without PNP

today went for ceramah for the whole day. Not really ceramah cause we have to make our scrap book and then have a personality test and watched a movie. The movie is nice except for 'that part'. its sad but i like the story line.

Totally random

Weekends is ending. Time for school again. I'm glad that Hyn-Yi like her hamsters. This weekend pass quickly. I'm not suprise cause when you're enjoying time flies. Hurt myself when I go jogging at Taman Tasik Pemaisuri. T.T

*blank*

Ciao~

Random....

Today teach Erica Science for 6 hours. Very tired but we have a lot of fun. I don't know that studying with a friend will be that fun cause normally I study on my own. If I study on my own I don't think I can stand that long either.

I found that I can remember the facts better. Since I'm teaching her, I explain the facts and I myself understand more. Its kind of good way to study.

Hope Hyn-Yi like her birthday present. The hamsters are very cute and very active. Very hard to catch. But I learn how to catch it. Hope she have fun rearing it.

I think that's all for now.

Ciao~

Please.....

My mom keep asking me to study and study. I know that the trial is around the corner and PMR is less that 90 days away. I know that I should be studying now but I need time to rest myself. I know that I spent a lot of time staying back at school. I stay back almost everyday. But I did study when I came home. I promise you to get srtaight A's and that's what I'll do to achieve it. I know that getting straight A's or not do not do you any harm but its for my own good. I know that. But I'm having many problems that I've to handle. I know that you try to help me with my problem that involves my friend. But I want to tell you that. I want to settle it down my own way. I can do it. Sometimes, you have to let me to make my own move. Don't always solve everything for me. You might not know what is the consequences after that. But I know. So, let me settle it my own way. I'm not blaming you or what but I need to make my own move. And I mean it. I hope this settle down the arguement between you and me.

Bye 08/09 AJKS and Hi 09/10 AJKS

Today is the informal AGM. I miss the 08/09 AJKs. They are so nice. I just can't believe that time past so fast this year that they have to leave us. But I'm sure that PBSM will rock on. Like what Wani said in her speech. We are going to win next year kawad competition.

Kawad is the time I got to know the 08/09 AJKs. Knowing how friendly and funny they can be. How serious they become when we run out of time for practice. Kawad is when I feel we are one. Like what Hoo Keen aka Kenny aka Daddy said that time. We are one. One heart. One mind.

Then, the PBSM annual camp is when I got closer with PBSM AJKs and also the members. I don't know that Manwyn is actually such a crazy guy. I don't know that they are so sporting.

I'm going to miss them very much.

Can't you stop it?

Can't you just stop comparing yourself with me? What do I have that you have to compare? I'm just a normal girl like you. So, I'm still confuse, why must you compare yourself with me? Why must you compare my academics with your academics? Everyone have their own capability? Don't you know that? So, why are you still comparing?

Maybe I've been wrong for all these years. I thought that you change. I thought you would not compare yourself with me. I thought you would not show me that long face again. I thought you would not create something which is not true. I thought you would not create bigger gaps between me and you.

But its proven that I'm wrong for all these years. You have not change at all. You did a bit but only for a while. Then the habits come back again. I might not know that sometimes the things that I said hurt you. But you can say to me directly. You don't have to show me long face and make me guess what's wrong.

I really don't know what to do now. I really don't wish the gap to grow bigger and bigger. I tried very hard not to do anything that make you upset or angry but somehow you'll get angry of me.

Bicara Akademik

Bicara akademik is not a good day for me. This year mid-term examination I did quite bad. Eventhough Pn. Roslina say I'm quite ok but still....*sigh* Stress from my mom....The school is kind of havoc (I'm not sure whether its the right word) Students going everywhere. My mom reach school quite on time. Talked to my mom when waiting for her turn......I don't like to talk about academics. Really, really don't like. But what can I do? The first question I heard when I visit my relative is "What's your ranking at shool?" or "How many marks do you get for this....?" Fed up with those questions. Aren't they get bored for asking me those question since I was standard 4? Well, if they don't, I am.

After the Bicara Akademik, took bus to go home. Stop at Jusco to have lunch at Mc Donald. Then I'm so tired that I fell asleep after my bath.

爱。是一个游戏吗？

为什么，有些情奴， 当曹家的时候，会说对方错？

爱是一种游戏吗？

为什么会有人输？为什会有人赢？

赢得是谁？输的是谁呢？

是谁对？谁错呢？

对我来说。爱：

没有人是对。没有人是错。

没有人赢。也没有人输。

爱，不是一种游戏。

每个人，付出的爱，都是真的。都是美好的。

为什么，有些人，要把这个美好的爱情，变成一个很伤心的事情？

当你说你爱一个人，

你要很确定，

你很爱很爱那个人。

不然的话，

你没有资格，

跟他/她说‘我爱你’。

STOP IT!

Stop playing prank on me. I don't like these pranks. It hurts my feelings. Do you ever think of people's feelings before you start the prank? If you don't please think before you do the pranks on other people.

Its not a funny thing to play with other people's feelings. It hurts and annoying.

WHY?

Does she have to do this to me? Why? I don't understand. Why? I told her my problem in my academics and promise I will do better and why she still bug me with the same question? Its not 'tthat I don't want to hear what she wants to talk. But I'm phobia of that topic. Really PHOBIA!!! I told her that I don't want to talk about it anymore but why she still bring that up?

When I feel I'm reaching the exit, she has to make me drop into the deep hole again. I'm tired of climbing from the bottom again. Why can't just let me to do things my own way? I have a better solution for this problem. Why you have to do this to me?

H1N1

There's a form 4 student who is tested positive H1N1. So to my friends out there, drink more water and eat more fruits. I don't one anyone in my school get infected by this disease. Its scary. So people, make sure you wash your hands before and after meal.

Hope the form 4s who got quarantine can come back to school soon. When our headmistress announce the news, everyone turns gloomy. T.T

PBSM Inter-group kawad competition 8.7.2009

This year the time to practice for this competition is very little, for me. I'm not sure but I felt I have more time to practice for this competition last year. Anyway, group 3+7 had done a very very very good job. I love all of them who participate in the squad.

For the first time I stand in the front row of the squad. For the first time, I time for the squad with another person (dunno how to spell his name). First time become one of the four penandas. First time being so stress until stomach ache before competition.

Its a great experince for me. I learn a lot of things from this competition. I learn how to march properly.  Cause I'm the front row, Sabrina said I cannot 'blur'. Cannot make mistakes. I almost once. My body went stiff when its our group turn.

back.

Its been a long time since I blog cause I usually blog daily. I don't know why I'm so tired these days. Once I'm home from school, I just go to tuition and fall asleep. But I'm disturb by nightmares which scares me every night. These nightmares always wake me up at around one or two o'clock in the morning. It makes me tired cause I need to wake up for school around five o'clock in the morning.   

PBSM Annual Camp 2009

Since the exam is over, now is the time to talk about the camp I went last Friday.



We reach there around 6 something. Having fun sitting at the back with the form 5 and See Kee. On the way to the campsite, I passed the cemetery where my grandpa, grandma and my dad's eldest brother is buried. When reach the campsite, we went to our respective dorm. I'm the same dorm with Fui Teng, See Teng, Xian Jin, Zi Yao, Jeng Yee, Sher Ee, Tammie and See Kee. Its so fun to sleep together with them. Had our dinner and we had our first activity, 'Ice Breaking'. We introduce ourselves and we need to draw our faces. Then we were given pictures drew by another person and find out what is his or hers ambition. I got Ceng Yew's and I can't recognise him at all. OMG! Then we were divided into groups. I'm same group with Fui Teng, Xian Jin, Wani, Jeng Yee,Tammie, Danial and Brandon. Our group name is '6.2'. Means six girls and two boys. Haha. I like our group name. Our moto is 'Day and night, 6.2 will shine with pride'. Then we went for night walk. We went in group by group and we were given two candles and six matches. Its very steep and slippery. But its fun. Went back to dorm. Had my bath and talk with my friends until around 4am.



The next morning, we went to do morning exercise which is fun cause the way we exercise is new compared to the camps I went previously. Then we went for our breakfast. Then we went for obstacles course. Its fun but scary when I need to jump from a high place since I'm phobia to height. But I manage to do it though. =) Then we have our 'Malam Kebudayaan' and I like the performance by the form fives. They are awesome. Then we had BBQ and again we chat until 2am cause we were worn out that day.

The last day of the camp. Its raining in the morning. We can't have our 'Xplore Race' T.T So after breakfast, we went to the hall and play some games. We have to balance nine nails on one nail. And we have to untie ourselves without taking out the loop. Its fun! Then we have the 'Majlis Penutup'. My group got No.1. So happy. But the other groups also did a very good job in the camp. Then we took pictures and went back. On the way back, again I passed the cemetery. Then play game with my friends which is so tension. Haha.....Then we were very tired, so we slept in the bus. Then reach school around 4 something. Reach home around at 5. I'm too tired that I bathe and then went to sleep.

Intervensi 3

Finally, the exam is over. But more to come. =(

Hope that I have time to study for the exams.

PBSM Station Game.

Yesterday, pbsm got station game. Its very very fun. First station is where we must put our hand in a pail don't know containing what and take out something. Second station is all the members line up in a straight line and then throw the sponge to the next person and the last person squeeze out all the water into a pail. The group who squeeze out the most water into the water get the most marks. Third station is when Garry throw down the angpaos and we must catch it in the air with chopsticks. Next is we have drink a drink which is made of the combination of coffee powder,coca-cola, chilli sauce and many more things. The fifth one is where need to balance a plate of flour on top of our head and walk through a distance and come back. The sixth one is the one that we need to eat raw onions, raw bitter gourd, raw egg and chew the cod-liver oil. Next is one of the group members need to gargle out a song and let the others guess what's the song is. The eigth station is we need to draw something on a cloth and explain what it means. The second last station is to balance a cup of water on kain anduh. Finally, our last station is to tie 1o strings on a pole and put it into the bottle by using the strings only.

I really enjoy very much during the station game. But I'm too tired that once I reach home, I bathe and I drop into deep sleep.