3 in the morning!

What time is it now? Its almost 3 in the morning and I'm still not asleep yet. *sigh*Am I having the insomnia again? I toss and turn but I still can't fall asleep. Can someone tell me a way that can make people sleep? I guess no one will answer since its so late already. *sigh* I'm thinking too much that I keep misunderstanding things. I think I should change that habit but its hard since I developed it for a long time.*sigh*Its holiday but sometime I don't feel happy about this. Maybe I'm too bored somtimes. I guess I have to find something to do. I don't really havr the mood to blog. I have many things to write but when I turn to this page, it seems that I can't type anything. Why?*sigh* Guess, I'll never know...

泡温泉。。。

今天，去泡温泉。。。第一次去泡，不是我想象中那样。。。所以有点吓倒。。。哥哥说，今天的水，一点都不热。。。我也是觉得不是那么热。。。。他说，有一次，真的很热。。皮肤可以熟。。听听下，有点恐怖。。。我泡温泉，泡到文凭的皮肤，变成粉红色。。。觉得很晕。。。回到家。。。又很累，奇怪的是，我睡不到。。。=.=真的是啊。。。但是也是一个很好的纪念的事情。。。

Done

Finally, I'm done with blog layout hunting and blog layout editing. This layout has hidden meaning to me. Something that I wish I owned but I couldn't cause it's not something essential. Even though I want it very much but I think I'll have it when I can afford to have it. Timing is not that right now I guess.

Renovating Blog

You might notice that there are some elements missing in my blog cause I'm finding a new blog layout.....

没用。。。没用。。。没用！！！

有时，我是不是说了一些会伤害别人的话？我觉得我常常都说错话。。但是，说出去的话不能收回。我真的很后悔，但是又不能做些什么。。。我是不是越来越没用？说话不会想好好来才说。。真是笨蛋。。。

我真是没用。。

有时候，我真的想太多。想到自己伤心，想到头痛，一直在误会。。。但是我不懂为什么我会想那么多。如果一些对我很重要的事情，我会想跟多。。。很多东西我都躲在心里。。不敢跟别人说。。。因为我怕别人会不开心。。。但是多在心里，我又觉得很辛苦。。唉~~怎样呢？又是当我一直想的时候，觉得自己很没用，很想帮他们但是又不懂怎样帮。。我真的是一个没用的人啊！什么都帮不了。。。只会让人家生气我。。对我反感。。

22/11/09

一直以来，我对自己没有信心，没有希望。其实，我没有想过未来要怎样，以前，什么决定都好，都是父母帮我决定好了。他们叫我走哪一条路，我就走哪条路。当我认识你的时候，你教了我，自己的路要自己决定。虽然父母是为你好，但是你也要想一想你要的是什么？你让我变了一个新的人。一个会作决定的人。不会做一些辉仍自己后悔的决定。不管那个决定是什么，你觉得是对的就跟着哪条路吧。你让我学会了怎样看这个世界。怎样好好的生活。你让我看到阳光。你让我觉得这个世界里不是那么没希望的。你让我学会怎样从一个好的方向看一个事情。

其实，我一直觉得，我的家人一点都不关心我。其实是我不会去想。他们其实对我很好。每个事情都是为了我。为了我的未来。不要我后悔。所以，虽然，到今天，有时候，他们做的决定我伸得很不喜欢，但是我知道那些都是为我好。我也会跟他们说我的意见，但是不会像以前那样，不会让我家人伤心。

Life

Life is short,
Life is unpredictable,
Life is precious,
Life is irreplaceable,

How your life goes is depends on what you decide, what you choose,
So, make the right decision, make the right choice, or else,
You will regret,
Live your life to the fullest so that,
You will not regret....

Last day of school

Yesterday was the last day of my form 3 freedom moments,

means,

last day of school for this year,

last day of my lower form life,

last day for some of form 3 students who planned to transfer next year,

I miss my friends,

Somehow, I miss school......

Memories will always be remembered....

All of us laugh so much yesterday....

Miss it so much....

Happt holidays to form 3s and good luck to form 5s

Academics,academics and academics!

All that you all say about is academics, academics and academics!!! Don't you all have other topics in your minds other than that? I know academics is important for my future and I know you all don't want me to follow my brother footsteps. But aren't you the one who told me that its ok if I did my best? Aren't you? Then why you brought up this topic again? Why? Why? If you are not fed up of it, I am! Just because you think its right for you then its right for me. Well, it might be but, can't you let me decide which path I want to go? Can't you let me think and don't decide everything for me? What is best in your mind might not be the best for others! Don't you realise that you are giving me stress even the exam is over? Don't you realise that I'm trying to avoid to have a long conversation with you? All you talk about is academics. You never ask me how I feel. All you want is me to follow what you think, what you want me to be. You never ask me whether I truly want it that way or not. I do have my opinion but you always cut me out when I want to tell you.

To You-Know-Who-You-Are

I'm sorry that I make you uncomfortable. Ya, I admit I have attention from my mom. Its not that I don't like it or what. Sometime I'm frustrated of something. You should talk to your parents about what you have in you mind. I know this sound idiotic to you but I don't know how to explain it to you. I know how you feel cause my parents is just the same in the past few years until I explain how I feel to them and how I wish they can treat me. I know its easier to say than done but I wish you will try.

p/s: You want to know why I like to follow you so much? Okay, I tell you. I just want to be friend with you and I'm sorry if I disturb you or make you uncomfortable.

Jejak Maklumat

Went for 'jejak maklumat' yesterday. There were 3 of us in a group. Its fun and tiring at the same time. I can't believe running around Taman Tasik Pemaisuri can be so tiring. Maybe because of we were running and thinking about what to do next. We had to work out physical and mental at the same time. After getting the clues and finish the 'essay', we found out that we missed one STATION!!! *sigh* Its to late for us to turn back when we realise about it. The essay part is very the 'za dao'. When I read question 7, its a MORAL QUESTION!!! OMG!!! I didn't study moral for don't know how many months!!!Having a hard time answering that question. I'm surprised that I still can remember how to answer it. Then went back to school.

Well,skipped school today. And surfing the net, take some quizzes at facebook etc...

Random...

Shawn: I don't really think you're super handsome but your look us ok but one thing i really hate about you is your attitude....I really don't like!!! Sorry if it does hurt you....

Skipped school today. Bored to be at home but still I think its better than being at school. Played games, surf the net, renovated my blog and so on....

October ends and November comes...Time flies. Time waits for no one. Its either you spend it wisely or just waste it...I'm not sure whether I'm spending my time wisely or not but at least I know that I don't laze around the whole day.

Kind of addicted to Joe Hisaishi songs..He is one of the composers that I admire...