im a jerk

i broke a lot of promises that i made to myself. i promise not to cry eventhough it hurts but i cried myself to sleep every night. i promise not to have a moody face but im showing them most of the time. i promise myself to focus on my studies especially when the exam is getting closer. instead, i lost my focus easily. i promise to improve my pieces but i don't.

i really hate myself. im sick of myself. im tired of myself. im hurting my friends. im a jerk.