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i've been crying a lot these days..........every night, when i am alone, i'll hug my pillow and start crying. i feel very sad. i feel very weak. i feel like im in a nightmare that i will not awake from. i dunno how to say out the problems. i dunno why is it so hard. mid-term is coming. im not in the mood of studying but i have to. i dunno wat to do. i lost focus easily. i dun have much time left. one more week to examination. then pbsm camp. then piano practical examination. no much time left for me. but im wasting my time. wasting every seconds i have. doing nothing. im good at telling people wat they should do put i can't tell myself wat i should do eventhough i know wat i should do. feeling very stupid. im a failure.