WMS Gathering and Happy Teacher's Day

today went to WMS after school with Serene, Hoo Keen, Wern Xin, See Kee and Thiba. Met Clement, Garry, Brandon, Shaza, Christopher, Ana, Sabrina, Sook Shian and Xian Jin at WMS. At the begining its ok-ok lah. But i like the station game. Group with Christopher, Garry and some other school's PBSM.........the checkpoints was fun..........i wish we had the time to finish all the 10 checkpoints.........but time flies.......T.T

Take LRT with Serene, Hoo Keen, Garry, Clement, Ana, Wern Xin, Shaza, Brandon and See Kee...... Then take bus home with Serene, Hoo Keen and See Kee..........Thanks to See Kee's mom for driving me home....... ^-^

Today our school celebrated teacher's day......... the performance is quite nice but sitting there under the sun is tiring especially when i was wearing long sleeves.............T.T...Nothing special after that.......just hanging around with the form twos...........chatting with crystal ng about the grade 7 examination........

T.T

i'm very tired of myself..........everything around me seems to go wrong...........why? can someone help me to answer this question? coz i dunno how to find the answer................i'll try my best but i think i'm too weak for that................feel like a weak-link in everything.............EVERYTHING in my life...............from my home to my school to me tuition and everything................it seems im hurting everyone.................if you really think that im hurting you, juz stay away from me................or do watever you think is right............  

啊！！！！！

now when my tuition teacher said that i only have 3 months left for pmr, then only i know how fast does the time goes for me this year...........and i only have 2 weeks before my piano practical examination...............im too unprepared!!!!!!!!!! i feel like everything i should prepared is only half done!!!!!!!!! this will not lead me to sucess but failure!!!!!!!!!!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!

today,i barely write with my fingers injured!!!!!!!!!! its so painful.............how am i going to practice my piano!!!!!!!!!!!! eventhough im typing now, im not using my injured fingers which is so umcomfortable.................

help teacher to upgrade the library.............nothing much to say about that..........continue doing that for tomorrow after school...........hope that our library will be better after this...........

怎么办？？？我很怕哦。。。。不懂要做些什么。。。。咳。。。。我不能再这样啦。。。。但是我又枢要怎样呢？？？

40 minutes to go

i only have 40 minutes left........wat should i do? trial exam!!!!!!!!!! somebody!!!!!!!!!! help me!!!!!!!!!

ah!!!!!!!!!!hope i can ply smoothly.............i injured my finger during practice yesterday.........WTH!!!! hope my first and second piece will go well.........im not that worried of my third piece.........

help me!!!!!!

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haiz.......why????when i thought that the emo atmosphere is gone................it come back again today...........why????????why do this to me??????????tomorrow is my piano trial exam.........scary........hope i can do well..............

argh!!!!!!!!!!!

很累啊！！！！为什么？？？咳。。。不管怎样，我还是述要面对这些问题。。。我在想我是不是想太多呢？我不清楚。。。。

希望我能做到。。。。

exam over.........at least dun have so much stress but still got practical exam to come.........haiz.........very tired...dunno wat to do..........

and hyn-yi,fyi, i dun really like to eat panadol. u expect me to eat panadil everyday since im having the headache everyday? no way la wei.............

感觉有点累。。。但是我已经决定了。。。我会很努力的去面对那些问题。。我希望我能做到。。。但是我有一种感觉。我觉得我不能做到。。咳。。。感觉很脆弱。。。。

咳。。。。。

when does this headache is going to end? i can't bear it anymore.........when i answer my questions for the exam today, it attacks me and i have to rest at least five minutes before i continue............i cannot waste anytime........i have to answer my questions papers...........

the emo atmosphere still hanging around my life..........i dunno wat to do about it coz im having exams now.........can't do anything much about it...............

为什么？枢要这样吗？我不要在痛苦了。但是我能做些什么？真得很晕。。。。每一天都头痛。。很难读书。枢要浪费很多时间。。。。怎么办？？

很痛。。。。

today is the first day of mid-term examination. I have 3 papers today. BM paper 1 and 2 and Moral. During these papers, i dunno why, i was attacked by sever headache. i really dunno wat happened. i dunno when the headache starts on me but i know it has been there for a long time.

感觉很痛但是我不能做些什么。。。。真得不懂怎么办才好。。。。

failure............

mid-term starts tomorrow...........really struggling to focus............i think i should clear my mind before i start studying......but the problem is i can't clear my mind........i dunno why........now i need more time compare to last time to study.....feel like im a failure again............dunno wat should i do.........i think all i can do now is study for the exam..........wish me luck..........good luck to those who have exam this coming week.....

Happy Mother's Day to the mothers out there....

Mummy means:

M (mom)
u (u live)
m (many)
m (more)
y (years)

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there!

Happy Mother's Day

i celebrate Mother's Day last week which is a good thing coz i have my mid-term exam on coming monday.......


Just doing something silly while waiting for the food.


guess which cup is mine?




me and my cousin............hope that gap will disappear soon

i hate myself so much

i cried again.......i dunno how many times i cried............but this time, im not crying in my room. i dunno why. i tried to hold it back but i just burst out in tears in front of the computer........but im still hugging my pillow..............
i hate myself being the weak
i hate myself for always crying
i hate myself for being useless

怎么办？？？？

emo-ing.........very unhappy..........exam coming...........hard time to focus...............i am too stupid to solve my problems............不开心。不开心。不开心！！！为什么？要这样吗？我不要！！！不要再让我痛苦。。。每一晚我都哭。。。哭道很辛苦。。。我不想再那么痛苦了。。。但是我无法把不开心的事情忘掉。。。。应为还没解决。。。。。我很笨。。。应为我无法解决哪些烦恼。。。。。

不懂要做些什么才好。。。。。。我就快变crazy了。。。。。。每有一晚我是没有哭的。。。。为什么？？？？很累啊。。。。。因为我的脑恨痛。。。。很辛苦。。。。要考试了。。。。。。。。怎么办？？？？

may babies

Happy red crescent day!!!


may babies................fun....but im in pain now..........gum hurts even its so long ago............i wonder is it becoz clement shake the sparkling juice that make it like that..........T.T

好不开心。。。。。。。。。。。

tat emo atmosphere still hangs around me............eventhough i seem to laugh and smile happily at school but actually im not happy at all.....i feel very FAKE!!! sometimes i feel my life is kind of meaning-less. i feel like and idiot. someone who burdens everyone around me.

exam coming.......often lost focus..........emo-ing everyday....................i really hate myself for being tat........but wat can i do? i myself also dunno.............

can someone juz hit me and make me faint? i really wan to........... a conversation which is meaning-less to me...........T.T

Mom: why don eat dinner?
Me: no appetite......
Mom: why no appetite?
Me no appetite then no appetite loh........
Mom: go study then
Me: walao, i just some back from tuition leh
Mom: so wat, u dun nid to exam la
Me: nid.........later go study loh

wat happen to me?

i read someone's blog......its not that i dun wanna look forward but there are many things that stop me from looking forward. i know wat my problem is but i cannot solve it.

today i have severe headache......feeling like my head is going to burst..........today went for badminton club meeting..........nothing special..........play badminton with hyn-yi..........actually i dun really wanna play coz my headache is getting worse under the sun but other than tat, i dunno wat i should do at school........

reach home, head my bath......my headache is getting very serious..........i cant even walk a straight line. i have to find something to support myself.........since when i became that weak? i study but bcoz of the headache,nothing goes in............went for tuition and have a hard time focusing on wat teacher was saying............

i really dunno wat to do with myself and my life........sick when the exam is coming?a very bad idea but i can sense it............

sick of myself
sick of everything that i do
it seem so wrong
but i dunno how to correct it
how stupid i am

im a jerk

i broke a lot of promises that i made to myself. i promise not to cry eventhough it hurts but i cried myself to sleep every night. i promise not to have a moody face but im showing them most of the time. i promise myself to focus on my studies especially when the exam is getting closer. instead, i lost my focus easily. i promise to improve my pieces but i don't.

i really hate myself. im sick of myself. im tired of myself. im hurting my friends. im a jerk.

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i've been crying a lot these days..........every night, when i am alone, i'll hug my pillow and start crying. i feel very sad. i feel very weak. i feel like im in a nightmare that i will not awake from. i dunno how to say out the problems. i dunno why is it so hard. mid-term is coming. im not in the mood of studying but i have to. i dunno wat to do. i lost focus easily. i dun have much time left. one more week to examination. then pbsm camp. then piano practical examination. no much time left for me. but im wasting my time. wasting every seconds i have. doing nothing. im good at telling people wat they should do put i can't tell myself wat i should do eventhough i know wat i should do. feeling very stupid. im a failure.

mixed feeling。。。。

today i went to jusco with see kee to shop for presents for a few friends......... Wow!! both of us used up all of our money! (almost for me) its so expensive.............im not going to buy presents from jusco again i think...........not until im sure i have enough money...............well, i bought a wallet for myself since my current wallet is kind of spoiled.............

well, as same as normal days, once i reached home, emoness filled the atmosphere.............. something is going very wrong with me...............i dunno wats that...................i wanna faint until my mind is clear................and make sure that when im conscious again, that atmosphere is gone...............but i cant..................

its May!!!!!!!

its May already.........getting nearer and nearer to PMR and more exams to come............time passes so fast that i barely realise it..............i feel like im wasting my time...............

first. thx to all the ex-AJKs who bought the pizzas and drinks for us yesterday.... =) after that hang around with science and maths club and 'lepak' around the school and went home..............

once reach home i became very emo...........it did not surprise me as i always emo when i reach home....... but something did cheer me up a bit.......i can go to the PBSM camp at Perak........yay......

but still emo.................hard to say out how i became emo but i know im emoing..............