Silence is a woman's loudest cry

This statement.
I heard it from many people around me telling me this fact.
At that time I don't understand.
How can you be silent when you are in so much pain.
Today is the day I felt it.
When you told me that,
It felt like my body was not in my control anymore.
I knew you are waiting for me to respond but,
All I did is lying there on my bed,
Staring at the ceiling,
In silence.
While my heart shattered in million pieces.
I don't blame you for what you did.
I just need time to absorb what is happening to me.
And finally,
I give in.
My body was shaking,
Tears running down my cheeks.
A silent cry.
That was heard by no one.

Shocked

I was shocked by the level of injustice happen here.

Those who are right are twisted to be the wrong ones by other people because they don't dare to admit the truth that is said.

Now, I'm starting to doubt the level of intelligence of our nation.

Are we able to continue to develop our country with this kind of ignorance?

Are we able to compete with other countries which are developing faster and better than us?

Please, don't let the remaining faith that I have towards our country's development turn to dust.

And blown away by the wind to nowhere.

Everything has it's limit and when the limit is crossed, it's just show how ignorant we are.

First Week of January

The first week of January is coming to an end in a flash. I can't believe school had already started for 3 days! I'm thankful that this year the school starts one Wednesday and not Monday even though school starts on the day after New Year.

3. 1. 2012
First day of school and for the first time in so many years, I'm able to wake up and not feeling drowsy since. Adjusting myself with school life after one an a half month holiday. Seeing the Form 1s accompanied by their parents. The nervousness in their eyes. I used to be like that six years ago. The only difference is I'm all alone as my parents can't accompany me. I'm glad of that as I can learn to stand and try to face the new environment alone. My class has changed from Block E to Block D which is the oven of SAB! Wow! I really feel being baked inside! Wonder how I can survive in that block when I was Form 4? Hm...Met my friends. I'm really happy meeting them after 2 weeks. Somehow seeing them smile to me and smiling back bring some kind of warm to me.Insecurity? I don't know. That pretty much about today.

4. 1. 2012
Hm....The weather today was not bad. Quite cooling compared to the day before. Lessons start and I should put my study mood on and start doing the revisions and etc.....The only problem is I still have a bit of slacking mode on.

5. 1. 2012
Finally, Friday! School ends earlier. Went to tuition with Xi Yuan, Han Ning, Yuen Yee, Qi Ying, Cheng Cheng, Yee Ling and YIN SIEW! At last, you are going for tuition! Had so much fun with them. First time hanging out or does it count as hang out? with Yin Siew. And help her finding her class and chatting with her is so much fun! Eu Nis! That is the first time I saw how happy she is. The pure smile on her face is so priceless. I really learn a lot that day. Not just from tuition but also my friends on how I should lead my life. Mr Linggam (is this how his name is spelled?) is like my weekly boost to study harder and do my best in everything in my life. It's hard to find a teacher who is so dedicated and only speaks the truth without having anything to hide from you. I wonder whether I have a chance to meet him again after STPM is over. Uni?

I have learn that happiness is just around me. I just have to look and there it is! Be optimistic and positive about life and everything will appear not as bad as you imagine and you can so anything you want as long as you go for it. For those who visit and read my posts, thank you so much for visiting this blog of mine. My aim this year is to be myself and stop trying to please anyone by changing into something else and I hope to bring smiles to everyone even is its only one person.