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Just went and watch back the piano covers that I uploaded since 3 years ago.
It's been a long time since the last time I uploaded a piano cover.
I've decided that I need to start doing piano cover again.
Piano has been my companion for more than 10 years.
I want to rebuild the passion that I had back then.
I don't want to give up on this because of the excuse for being too busy studying.

I've decided.

To move on.

To never look back.

To step out from the comfort zone that I've cling on for all these years.

Be healthy so that you can enjoy life more

Trial

Having Biology and Mathematics T tomorrow but I'm here, typing words which I shouldn't do. I feel so stressed out (due to no preparation). I will go back to study after posting this. Today was Pengajian Am and Chemistry. 

Pengajian Am, hmmm......I would say not as bad as I think but I just manage to finish and the time ends and there are some questions that I just banged on them because I have no idea what the hell are those. @.@

Chemistry, confused from the objective questions to the essays. Luckily the essays are at least kinder but still I'm not able to finish them. T.T

Biology and Mathematics T, please be kind to me tomorrow. Don't be so cruel. It's my first time taking SPTM full format. 

Note to self, after this trial, rest one day and start studying! No delay anymore. Barely a month left and you still have loads to revise! Gambateh! Fighting! 加油！Good Luck! (To all the Lower 6 SABIANS and to the Form 3's )

MUET

Today MUET speaking trial was the most tension one I've ever had.
The atmosphere was so tense with only 4 candidates and Pn. Usha.
I'm lucky for I got a question that I'm familiar with.
Or else, I will be in the hot soup.
The trial went quite ok for Task A but quite a disaster for Task B.
I still need to improve on my confidence and the smoothness in my speaking.
I hope I can be calmer and more alert for the following practices and the real examination
With two unknown examiners.
Please be kind to me

42 days to go

Flipping sound of revision books

The sound of people punching numbers into their calculators

Phrases "OMG! STPM!" from both upper and lower six students

"You all should start studying a long time ago"

"Wake up from your LALALAND!"

"Don't slack"

"No games, facebook, twitter, internet, etc...."

From the parents and teachers.

For these few weeks

I can't stop staring at my books!

Wondering how much more I have to cover

How much have I really understood them

Flipping them over and over again

Some subjects treat me well while some kills me without mercy

Even though I'm busy I think I should not abandon my blog 

Where I pour out all my heart and soul

My misery, happiness

I should put more memories of my life here 

For one day I will come back 

And read them one by one

Mesmerized by all the things 

That happen in my journey of life.

I Love You Forever Lee Chong Wei

This post is dedicated to Datuk Lee Chong Wei :

I'm proud of you and I will respect you for all you have done for Malaysia.

You showed me your pride as a Malaysian.

You will always be my inspiration.

Thank you for bringing Malaysia to the eyes of the world.

To show your spirit in badminton and sports.

I respect your humbleness.

There's no need to apologize or to shed tears

Because,

I and all the Malaysian are proud of you and we always will.

You may lost the medal but you gain the respect of the whole nation

In my heart you deserve the gold medal more than any atheletes that participated

Love you forever for you are the best to us

Being the youngest in the family, everyone should have an impression that I'm a very spoiled child. The truth is, I'm not because my parents doesn't bring me up like a princess who get whatever she wants with a few crying or thrashing here and there. My parents taught me that I have to work for things that I want. In this world, there's always a give and take situation. But today, I hurt my mom's feeling. I felt so bad that I don't know what should I do. I just sit there staring at my Biology book instead of studying it for the small test that my teacher said he is going to give tomorrow. From now on, I've made my decision to not to hurt me parents' feelings. NEVER!  I'm sorry, mom.

It's time

To 

Stop dreaming

Stop procrastinating

Stop giving myself so many excuses to not work hard

I made 

A promise

A deal

I decided

To stand up high

And face the world once more

I will not let my mistakes in the past to bring me down

Seeing my friends

Studying their minds out

I must at least start  little by little

No more saying

"No mood"

"Tired"

"I can't"

"I've done my best"

These words will not be in my dictionary anymore

This is the second chance given to me

I will not let it go without a FIGHT

Form 6!
Here I come!
^_^

Last day of April
Last day of my aimless, stressless life after SPM
Tomorrow is 1st of May
A new month
I will be going to school again
STPM
It's so funny because
I have always said that I don't want to go to Form 6
Now that I think about it
Its not that bad at all
STPM is one of the most recognized examination
And you don't have to pay thousands
NO
Ten thousands or even hundred thousands
For your private universities or colleges


Let STPM be the beginning
The beginning of a new phase
Of life
For me
To be serious and sure
Of I want to be
In the future

A journey always start with a single step

Many people said
Form 6 is very difficult
It is very difficult to score in STPM
I wonder if that's true
Since I'm destined to walk down this path
I'm not going to whine or complain about it
Since it's so hard I'm going to prove that I can overcome it
STPM,
Your challenge is accepted
All the best! For myself and those who are entering Form 6 ^_^

It's 1.26 a.m. After more than one month after SPM result came out on 21 March 2012. The fate, the truth, the reality. I'm still asking myself these, "What should I do?" "What will I be?" "Why I'm feel so helpless, useless?" "What happen to all my confidence and promises to myself?" "Why can't I stand up already?" .etc........... Time passes without me realising it.I have wasted so much time that I will never ever able to chase back. All I can do now is face everything that is in front of me. CHAI XI TIAN!!!!!!!!!!! It's time to wake up from this depression or dream or whatever you call it!!!!!!!! Chin up and face the world with PRIDE!!!!!!!!! GAMBATEH~

Humans are mysterious creatures. It's difficult to figure out what they're thinking and who they are. One moment, they're very friendly, kind, helpful...etc.....The next thing you know is they change into a totally opposite person. Scary yet very mysterious. Who are they actually? Hmmm............

Today is the first time to Skype with a Japanese friend. It's a wonderful experience. I learn quite a lot from him and I like the politeness of the Japanese. Thats why I love Japanese culture so much~ If you are reading this Yusuke-san, hontouni gomene! For not being to speak Japanese. I hope you learn a lot of English too ^_^ I'm really glad to have a good friend like you.

Arigatou~

GO GO PBSM 2012~

Girls, I want to tell you that I'm proud of you all. Even though there's some mistakes here and there during the practice but make sure you learn from them and don't do it on Wednesday 21/03/2012, ok? I know all of you can do it. All you all lack of is the SEMANGAT~ Let the spirit of teamwork burn in you. After so many months of practising, I don't think you want to just let it wasted just like that don't you? You want to make it worth it right? So, from now onwards, remember all your steps in the whole kawad process from the beginning when you march in from the field to the keluar baris in the end. Make sure all your movements is precise. I know the AJKs told you these many many times but these things matters a lot. And show your SPIRIT to the world. Show how STRONG PBSM GIRL SQUAD IS!!!!!! Ok, things to bear in mind :

1. Hentakan 90
2. Hand 90
3. No Seretan
4. When hentak, TEGAS
5. Stand still and straight when you stop
6. When pusing, make yourself stable after pusing
7. PEKA
8. When you stop, don't move a single muscle
9. Be SEMANGAT.....


And last but not least, wish you all all the best on Wednesday. I'll be watching you from Block E. Shine yourself no matter in the sun or in the rain. That PBSM SPIRIT!!!!!

Never Give Up

Life has its ups and downs. Somtimes we will fall down and feel very hurt. It is always easier to stay there, not getting up. Giving up on standing back on our feet. Leaving all the problems to our loves one around us. Making them worry while we keep staying there, avoiding the problems. Ask yourself, do you want to stay there forever? Do you want to be a useless person? Nobody can help you for yourself. You have to be responsible for your actions.

Everyday we have 2 choices. One, we can choose to be happy and optimistic throughout the day or Two, we choose to be emo, sad, pessimistic and putting a long face, feeling miserable for the whole day. Which one do you want?

What do you get from giving up? Money? Knowledge? Problems solved? Power? No! People around you will soon loss their trust one you cause you are not dependable. So, seriously people, be responsible and don't just give up because its hard. Stop giving yourself excuses like "I can't", "It can't be help", " It'll be like that forever"....etc....etc....etc..... You haven't even try and you are thinking that way. What you think of the result? NOTHING! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!

Be responsible. Face it. Don't leave it and burden other people. Other people have their life too. Move on. Don't stay at the same point!

Kawad~

Why do I suddenly talk about kawad? It's true that my kawad days ended last year but the memories are with me forever. I just read Wei Hwei's post about kawad. It sure brings lots and lots of memories. I might not start kawad as early as some seniors of yours who started at Form 1 and Form 2. I started my kawad life at Form 3. At first, yes, I admit, it's harsh, torturing, hurt,etc...etc....etc...at first for me because everyday, I have to stay back at school till 4.30pm to 5.00pm, sometimes even later, not to mention the hot sun and the rain. Besides, the seniors are scolding us everyday, asking us to do multiples of pumping, different kinds of punishments given to me or to my teammates when I did some steps wrongly. So what? Did I give up? No! Why? To be honest, the first time I joined kawad is for the marks. But after being with the team for around 3 months, I actually love kawad, I don't care about the marks anymore actually. I'm sincerely, purely love kawad. You! The juniors of year 2012! You can ask your AJKS, your seniors, do they love kawad? Why do I joined kawad the next years? Because I love to have the unity feel. The bond. For those who is new to kawad, you might not know the feeling but trust me, you will never regret joining kawad. Unless, you forced yourself to do this, you just followed your friends to join because they said they want to join. For those who are new. Please, if you intended to join kawad, please show your AJKS your effort, sacrifice your time to go for practice, try to understand the meaning of kawad, I mean the significant of it. Seriously. For those who had joined kawad before, please, show your spirit, YOUR SEMANGAT!, your AJKS need YOUR SEMANGAT to lead the whole team. THE SEMANGAT of your AJKS alone are not enough! They need your SPIRIT too! To the AJKS, I know it's frustrating when you receive lame excuses from your members or those irresponsible ones who doesn't even tell you why they can't show up, don't give up. I have faith in you guys and girls. I'll visit you all soon. I promise. Keep up with the good work for both girl and guy squad. The reason I put all these pictures before this long post is I hope this will inspire all of you to put your heart into KAWAD. Please.

Yours sincerely,
Xi Tian

PMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate PMS....It makes me irritated, depressed, emotional, etc.etc.etc.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I always feel guilty when I PMS and I accidentally scold someone for some stupid small reason or getting angry on little things that I usually don't angry for (well, maybe not all) Just hope it get over fast....I'm suffering here and now....I hope you are here to hug me tight and pampered me to the MAX~I miss you

Nites~

It's almost 1 a.m in the morning. I guess it's time for me to sleep now. Good night and sweet dreams world ^_^

Aquarius~ Is it true?

Aquarius Strength Keywords:

- Witty
- Clever
- Humanitarian
- Inventive
- Original

Aquarius Weakness Keywords:

- Stubborn
- Unemotional
- Sarcastic
- Rebellious
- Aloof

Aquarius and Independence:

Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being.

Aquarius and Friendship:

Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another. They love to make people laugh and cheer people up and it makes them feel good to make others feel good. They do not expect anything in return for this could put a damper on their freedom, they live with no strings attached. They are very unconventional and always full of excitement, an Aquarius friend always makes life fun. They might offer you a spontaneous last minute camping trip with no supplies prepared, if you decide to go along, you will have a weekend to remember forever!

Aquarius and Business:

Aquarius likes to do something useful with their lives, mixing that with their amazing way with people, they make excellent politicians and social workers/psychologists. They are progressive thinkers and are great at forming new ideologies and theories, any type of research is very suited to Aquarius. Aquarius one downfall in the business world is the attention to detail, they like the grand ideas and massive plans and can make them happen, but the mundane day to day repetitive details causes them to procrastinate. Aquarius needs a secretary.
Aquarius and Temperament:

Aquarius tend to be rebels just for the sake of having their own way. Their stubbornness sometimes causes their failure, they will continue to do something their way even though others have proved it is wrong, they are very smart people and know it is wrong but they will continue just because it is their way, they are very fixed in opinion and stubborn when confronted. Despite their stubbornness and fixed opinion, they will never impose their ideas on others, they have respect for everybody's differences.

Aquarius Deep Inside:

Aquarius are in search of wisdom, they are very observant and they can gather their information objectively because emotions do not get in the way, they seem to be above emotions altogether and when they speak, they speak the truth. Sometimes it may be shocking or painful because of their disregard for the feelings of others, but they intend no harm, they call it like they see it and do not emotions cloud their judgment, they are very detached from emotion. It is not that Aquarius are unemotional, they just to not trust their emotions so they incorporate them into their ideas of who they are. As a result, if someone does not agree with their ideas, Aquarius sometimes takes it personally, not as much as other zodiac signs however as Aquarius is intellect driven and not emotionally driven. Sometimes they wonder if there is something in life that they are missing because they do not feel like other people feel. This does not necessarily prevent them from being involved in intimate relationships, they are capable of this but the person on the other end will always notice an air of detachment from Aquarius. Aquarius wonders 'why?' so much that they can question their existence. They wonder if what they are doing is useful, they want other people to notice them and appreciate them, this is caused by underlying insecurities that wonder if other people accept them for who they are but these are never brought to the surface because to an Aquarius, it does not matter that much because they know that they are special.
Aquarius in a Nutshell:

Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind. Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions. They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation. They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think. As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation. They welcome change because boredom is their enemy. Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius. Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique. Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live. Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded. It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person. Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even thought this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.

Blood Type O Personality

Yup! I have blood type O which is the most common blood type in the world. I'm going to search a little more about my blood type.........So, now its about "Blood Type O Personality"

People with blood type O people are outgoing, energetic and social. They are the most flexible of the blood types. They easily start up projects but often have trouble following through because they give up easily. They are flighty and not too dependable. O types always say what's on their mind. They value the opinion of others and like to be the center of attention. Also, people with O blood are extremely self-confident.

You have a bright personality and lead others well. Your kind personality doesn’t let you leave people in trouble. You want to make your life dramatic, so people around you might not be so comfortable. Don’t forget there is happiness in ordinary life. You are proud of yourself and don’t like other people’s interruption. You would like to live in your own way, but over-confidence might return to you as a poison. When you fail you will feel in a slump due to your confidence. Take it easy and don’t forget even you might fail.

I wonder if its true...Some I can identify myself while others, I need help from my dear friends to tell me whether its true or not ^_^

Pass UNDANG TEST~

It's not as difficult as I thought it will be. I waited for 2 hours plus and when I got in, I just answered for around 15 minutes and I'm out of the room. As long as you studied and you will be find. And I PASSED.....Thank god ^_^

My Passion Is Music

I almost give up on it due to no support from my family. Piano. The only thing that could cheer me up when I’m down in the dumps. When I face any difficulties or had any arguments with my friends or my close ones, I play the piano and my depressed mood will become as cheerful as the sun during the spring. So shiny and refreshing. Shining its beautiful rays to light up all the wonderful things in the world. And sometimes, after the rain, when the sun shines, rainbows appear where it brings you to your dreams ^_^

Ok, back to the topic. From today onwards, I’m not going to give up my passion towards music anymore. I will playing and keep playing the piano with all my heart and passion till the end of my life. It’s the first thing that I decide myself to learn without and forcing by my parents and it’s the first thing that I insist to keep on going even though I’m so frustrated when I can’t play certain part right. But today, I can play them smoothly through hard practice and I enjoy every moment of it.
So, I would give up and I advice all of you. My lovely blog visitors, if you have passion towards something, do not give up. It’s always not to late to pick up that passion again.

Have a nice day ahead.

Dyes Hair~

I dye my hair~ brown colour~ Milk tea brown...First time and do it myself...so happy~