Who sit at home being good kids. Who aren’t drop dead gorgeous like the girls staring back at us off the covers of fashionable teen magazines. Who don’t drink, don’t party hard, and would rather read books or hang out and talk with friends than hit up some party joint and jump into pools and whatnot.

This is for the girls who choose their own genre of music, who don’t simply listen to the mainstream pop blasted from radios. This is for the girls who bite their nails, who feel self-conscious about every single thing about them, who tug on their hair while they’re nervous.

This is for the girls who actually care about something other than how they look, or how hair naturally curls. This is for the girls who cry at movies, sympathize with friends, and extend helping hands to people who need it. This is for the girls who play their music and go with it.

This is for the girls who wear glasses, who wear braces, who have frizzy hair, who have extreme ranges for height or they’re stuck in the middle. This is for the only children, the oldest, the youngest, the middle children. This is for the ones who sit at home and have to listen endlessly to their friends, both guys and girls moan about their love lives while they patiently endure being a supportive friend. This is for the ones who hope and dream and often settle for being second best without any complaint.

Above all, this is for those girls who see themselves as hopeless and forgotten. This is for the girls who dream so much that they forget how to dream. This is for the girls who have fallen and need a helping hand to get back up; only they’ve been the helping hand for so long they’ve forgotten how to fall. This is for the girls on the ground, the ones who are learning how to fly. Because mark my words, when you fly you’ll soar so high eagles will be envious.

This is a post telling you that you are loved. You are beautiful. No one can ever take that away from you. You will fly and you will shine so brightly. Yes. Yes you will.

December means X'mas!!!!

Happy Holiday ^_^

Exam still going on....11 more days and we are FREE!!! Except for those who is taking chinese....They still need to suffer for 2 more days...Good Luck people...I know its kind of late but better late than never right?

This exam is the hardest cause I don't have the nervous feel when exam comes. Does it means I don't have the heart to study anymore? NO! Its just maybe that I only feel nervous when I see those papers especially when I CAN'T ANSWER THEM!!!!

Every parent will ask, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Some parents forced their children to be what they want them to be like doctors, lawyers and so on...They don't ask what their children really likes and want to be...Well, me parents did ask me the question and I said "I don't know"...Not that I don't know what I want to be in the future but I want some time to think about it. I always have a dream to be a musician. I wonder what will they say. ^_^ I just want to fulfill my dream...The thing that I love to do...So, do what you like to do or you will regret for your whole life

Every great dream begins with a dreamer.
Always remember,
you have within you the strength,
the patience,
and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.

It's raining....
I love the rain...
I feel the rain is washing off my sadness, my stress, my frustration.
Left only my happiness with me ^_^


Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Everyone has different opinion on what filled their world. Some say their world is painted with beautiful and bright colours. Some say their world is filled with romance. Some of them say their world is filled with stress.

My world is full of music. I adore music very much. I feel very relax when I'm surrounded with music. Its like the music is keeping me in my own world. World of music. Where those beautiful melodies sing in the air. Serenade every particle it can found. Music is so amazing. Music can describe someone's feelings. Music can motivate someone. Music is something that everyone need and love. Is there anyone who hates music? Who will groan when he or she heard music no matter how beautiful it is.

Music is an art. An art that only can be feel, can be admire by those who really love, appreciate this magical power.

A painter paints pictures on canvas.
But musicians paint their pictures on silence.

October.....

Last year, by now I will be freaking out cause PMR is just a few days away. Studying like there's no tomorrow. Having nightmares that I'll not able to answer the questions and having a bad result.

Its been 4 years since I'm in SAB. It felt as if I just enter SAB yesterday and with a blink of an eye and whoosh I'm form 4 now. Time pass so quickly.

October brings a lot of memories. The month I went depressed, stressed, happy and freedom. I wonder how October feels this year. ^_^

Life can be so fragile. We can be living today but we might not tomorrow. Treasure and cherish the one you love before its too late. Don't wait till your regret it.




Never take someone for granted,
Hold every person close to your heart,
Because you might wake up one day,
And realize that you've lost a diamond,
While you were too busy collecting stones....

Yes, when you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you, see you through
I'll be there, and there is nothing, I won't do

1-I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time, promise you
For you I will,

I will shield your heart from the rain
I won't let no harm come your way
Oh, these arms will be your shelter
No, these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you

I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you right or wrong

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time, promise you
For you I will,


Lay my life on the line, for you I will fight, oh
For you I will die, with every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my word, I'll give it all
Put your faith in me, put your faith in me
And I'll do anything...oh...

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time, promise you
For you I will.

HAPPY 53th INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

Well, it has been 53 years since Malaysia got its independence in 1957. We should be proud that Malaysia is a country of multi-racial, full of coulours, religions and beliefs. However, recently, there is some citizens who is so racism who discriminate other races. This is not a country for only Malays or Chinese or Indians. This is a country for everyone. We are 1 Malaysia. Its disappointing that after 53 years of independence, we still can't overcome this problem. Come on people, lets cooperate and make 1 Malaysia a reality.

HAPPY 53TH INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

Marriage.....What does it really mean?

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Thanks 09/10 AJKS and Hi 10/11 AJKS

Thanks for the AJKS of 09/10 for trusting me for this post. Thanks you very much for giving me a chance to carry a responsibility in myself. I don't know what to say. And Thanks for all the activities and the memories of this year. Thank you very much.

And CONGRATZ for all the new board of AJKS!!!!! Hope next year will be better. ^_^

PBSM ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Haircut

Today went to have a haircut before school reopens....

My hair cut change from this...


TO THIS!!!

PBSM CAMP!!!!

Sorry for the late post cause after the camp, I was attacked by a high fever. Even I'm online, I can't really blog....This year camp was FUN!! Well, every camp has their own specialty and fun....

First day, ICE-BREAKING!!! OMG!!! I loved the snake tangling thing!!!! Can we play it again some other time? I'm sure everyone will enjoy it....We went to the Tanjung and sort of lepak there....XD That, the end of day 1.

Second day, we were woken up by the form 5s around 2.30am for OBH....Its fun and I wanna do it again...I miss OBH so much...Then we sleep....Another thing that I miss which the the crowing of the chickens!!!! OMG!!! They're so cute!!!Had amazing race. I love the activities though me and my partner MING YAN!!!!!!!!!! didn't win but we both love it!!!!Night walking. First time walking in the jungle alone. SCARY! And I fell down into the PAYA and I'm covered with MUD!!!That's FUN anyway. End of day 2.

Day 3, body painting...We paint Brandon as TIGER!!! KAWAII!!!Then we had the Explore Race...First time touching 'belut', peeling the coconut with my teeth,filling a bamboo filled with water and touching and smelling the LATEX!!!OMG!!! THE LATEX SMELL LIKE SHIT!!But I miss those experiences....I wanna do it again....Then closing ceremony and we went back to KL....

I miss the chickens...I miss the night sky full of stars....I miss everything about camp....Thanks AJKS and the form 5s for the wonderful time in the camp

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday! Bro!

I don't know what to say......

But you are a very very good brother....


Have a nice year~~~

Today went jogging. Long time never jogging. Went to a place where all I can see is trees and the sky. When I look at them. I remembered how I used to look at the trees and the blue sky when I'm unhappy. It does calm me down with its beautiful patterns. The trees overlapping each other. The clear blue sky with the white clouds. Always changing. I always look at the clouds. Sometimes I saw a rabbit, sometimes I saw a puppy, and many cute things. By looking at the beauty of the sky and trees. Somehow, I'll forget how upset I am.

After jogging, played badminton. Long time never play so my skills also not good already. Badminton is the first sport I learn and also my favourite beside swimming. I love badminton because I feel satisfied every time I able to hit the shuttlecock back. I love swimming because its a sport where you wont feel hot or tired until you go out of the pool.

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May

Wow! It's May already. May, the month of examination. I hate examination but its an opportunity to test myself how much I understand what I learn. May, the month where a lot of friends' birthday. Sabrina, See Kee, Sheau Li, Sheau Wen and lots more.(May babies)

I don't really realise its May until I look at the calendar. 14th of May is the Mid-Term Examination. Seriously, I'm very nervous. Form 4 subjects are new to me. Form 4s can't memorise anymore but apply everything that we learn. Thats the different between Form 1, 2,and 3 and Form 4 and 5.

Tomorrow's school. The cycle comes again. Repeating day by day. Just hoping for something interesting or exciting to happen...

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Sick

Well, I've been coughing and sneezing for almost one week. I just hope this sickness cure faster. I'm not going to school tomorrow. kind of happy but I do miss my friends a bit.

I wonder how's everyone today. As for me, I slept for a long time. At least I feel much better now. Not coughing so often.

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Life

Life is like music. Everyone's life is different. They have their own way to lead their own life. Just like music, every song has its own style, its own meaning. Everyone is unique in their own way. Everyone have different daily activities, different attitude, different look, different voice and many more. These are all the characteristics that make someone unique. There are no two person who is 100% alike. There must be something that make them different.

So, don't force yourself to be someone else. You will feel very stressful, very unhappy. Why make yourself so miserable? Life is not something that make you miserable. Its something that you should treasure. Something precious to you. So, live your life the way you want it to be. The way that will make you happy everyday. If someone achieve something that you don't achieve, don't be sad cause you will achieve something different that you can proud of.

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Today went to visit my ancestors's grave. Woke up around 5.30am...Very sleepy... Listening to songs in my mobile phone all the way to Lukut...Its quite fun to meet my cousins again...We chatted about a lot of things...Somehow, now I felt I'm closer to them...Last time, I used to get away from them as far as possible cause I don't really know how to communicate with them...Well, things change and I like this change...It makes me feel close to the relatives on my father's side. ^_^

Now I want to make a habit of posting a motivational phrase everytime I blog...This is to remind myself as well as my blog readers to never give up no matter how hard the obstacle is...If we never give up, one day, we will achieve what we fight for...

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No matter what the result is, we were the best in our hearts...We did our best...And today had become a history...We still love each other and SABRINA!!!!!!!!! I BELIEVE SHE'S A VERY GOOD COMMANDER!!! AND VERY CUTE!!! PBSM ROCKS FOREVER!!

So fast and its March already. I don't know that time pass so quickly like this before. Its feels like I'm wasting the time provided to me. Those precious time. I didn't treasure it. I can't get back those wasted time no matter what I do. So, from now on, I'm going to treasure every moment I have. Seriously, I feel that throughout these months, life had been very hectic. Everything rushing.

Everyone seems to be very moody these days. Even those who always smile last time. Those who could cheer me up with their smiles. Of course I know there are no people with people who has no problems in their life. Or maybe I'm the naive one, who thinks so stupidly of life.

CNY is here....Hope everyone is eager to celebrate it....Get more angpao's people!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Finally, the construction is done....I wish i can blog more but its time to sleep...so I think next time then......Ciao~

For everyone's information, this blog will be under construction until its done....

Its the third week of January already....Time passes so quickly....But,somehow, I still feel that I'm not use to year 2010...Or maybe not use to form 4 life yet... XD

Tomorrow is the result of who will enter the KAWAD team....

CNY is coming...I still need to buy a shirt and a mini skirt...I think I'll spent my CNY with tanned skin XD....I'm sure that I'm going to put a lot of make up...HAHA....

Form 4 years is....*don't know how to describe it* Somehow fun...Cause got to learn new things and meet my friends again....Somehow miserable....Cause so many rules, still can't adapt myself with the new life of upper form....I miss the lower form life....Miss meeting See Kee, Vivien, Wei Hwei and others during the recess time....So many things change....When 2010 arrived I feel weird....I don't feel like form 4....I feel like I'm still stuck at form 3....

One week had passed....tomorrow got KAWAD! Yay! I reallt miss those moments very much...Hope can meet See Kee and the other form 3's since when I asked them, they said their parents don't allow them to enter KAWAD....Next week will be better...I'm sure!!! ^_^

Today didn't go jogging but cannot online also T.T....Went to piano lesson then go to Tesco to buy some stationeries then I bought a new dress for CNY!!! Nice!!! ^_^Now I can online one or twice a week....*sigh* I wish I can online more often....

Tomorrow is school!!! Can't believe holidays past so quickly....Don't have the go to school mood....Form 4 life...I wonder how's tat....I hope I can cope with Form 4 life which many people says that its tough....Its not a honeymoon year...Of course I know that....*sigh* Guess I'll find out all the answer to these confusion tomorrow.....

But one good thing about going to school is........I can meet my friends!!! I truely miss them!!!!