很累。。

我的心情一天比一天不好。。我不懂为什么。。有可能是考试的压力吧。。我这几天都觉得很累。。每一天都睡很久。。根本不像我。。我平时没有睡那么多。。。有可能我太勉强我自己吧。。我的头很痛。。我是不够睡啊？还是我给我自己压力呢？此时我的心情，不是不好。自不过，那些压力吧我的心情往下跌。。我真的很累很累。。很想大大声的叫出来。。。但是，我又做不到。。咳。。我都不懂怎么办才好。。

Mixed feelings...

Its holidays but no holiday mood at all. Maybe because I've been busy studying for PMR. My mood changes all the time. Like the waves. Sometimes up sometimes down. I don't feel like myself since the holidays started. I feel very tired and uncomfortable the whole day for no reason. For the first time I've been sleeping for 12 hours.

Everything seems to be out of place. I tried to put things together but it seem to become worse. *sigh* Really don't know what to do. Everyone is giving me pressure. Giving me pressure doesn't make me better but make me worse. I'm someone who don't know how to handle with pressure. Too much pressure can make me insane.

random

Another jogging day.....kind of bored....i'm banned from the internet on weekdays....i hope i don't get banned even on weekends....i've been studying but my head like its gonna burst...

Today i lost the bear that i hung on my handphone... :(

是的。。我不是真正的快乐

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深切切淡掉了

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后再后悔着

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你知道真正的快乐 你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让配角全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

Jogging,jogging,jogging

Its a weekly routine but this week i feel bored and not my usual self so, i took some pictures...


Better without my clip...


I kind of regret doing this pose...



The brightest picture...




Taman Tasik Pemaisuri...


Don't know what i'm taking...


What a cute duck...too bad i can't take the video of it...


I like the trees...

4.9.09

friday for this meek is kind of nice for me...i don't know why everyone seem so hyper on friday... maybe cause its end of the weekdays and everyone can have a rest after the hectic intensive traning for PMR...most of my friends act very weird on friday...i myself is kind of hyper that day too...i don't act the way i do during the normal days...maybe all of us is too stress up...i don't know about my friends but i know that i'm stress up...time passes so quickly...its only one more month left for all the form 3s...i hate to remind myself about this but its the fact and i have to face it no matter what...there's no other choice...one and only choice is to study hard for this.... but what i'm doing now is blogging which is something i should not do now...but i don't really care about it...i need a place for me to forget about all the stress even for a few hours....or else, i'm going to b e crazy like the me when i'm going to face UPSR....