Smile Always

Kawad~

2012-02-02T05:57:00.003+08:00

Why do I suddenly talk about kawad? It's true that my kawad days ended last year but the memories are with me forever. I just read Wei Hwei's post about kawad. It sure brings lots and lots of memories. I might not start kawad as early as some seniors of yours who started at Form 1 and Form 2. I started my kawad life at Form 3. At first, yes, I admit, it's harsh, torturing, hurt,etc...etc....etc...at first for me because everyday, I have to stay back at school till 4.30pm to 5.00pm, sometimes even later, not to mention the hot sun and the rain. Besides, the seniors are scolding us everyday, asking us to do multiples of pumping, different kinds of punishments given to me or to my teammates when I did some steps wrongly. So what? Did I give up? No! Why? To be honest, the first time I joined kawad is for the marks. But after being with the team for around 3 months, I actually love kawad, I don't care about the marks anymore actually. I'm sincerely, purely love kawad. You! The juniors of year 2012! You can ask your AJKS, your seniors, do they love kawad? Why do I joined kawad the next years? Because I love to have the unity feel. The bond. For those who is new to kawad, you might not know the feeling but trust me, you will never regret joining kawad. Unless, you forced yourself to do this, you just followed your friends to join because they said they want to join. For those who are new. Please, if you intended to join kawad, please show your AJKS your effort, sacrifice your time to go for practice, try to understand the meaning of kawad, I mean the significant of it. Seriously. For those who had joined kawad before, please, show your spirit, YOUR SEMANGAT!, your AJKS need YOUR SEMANGAT to lead the whole team. THE SEMANGAT of your AJKS alone are not enough! They need your SPIRIT too! To the AJKS, I know it's frustrating when you receive lame excuses from your members or those irresponsible ones who doesn't even tell you why they can't show up, don't give up. I have faith in you guys and girls. I'll visit you all soon. I promise. Keep up with the good work for both girl and guy squad. The reason I put all these pictures before this long post is I hope this will inspire all of you to put your heart into KAWAD. Please.

Yours sincerely,
Xi Tian

PMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2012-02-01T12:40:00.002+08:00

I hate PMS....It makes me irritated, depressed, emotional, etc.etc.etc.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I always feel guilty when I PMS and I accidentally scold someone for some stupid small reason or getting angry on little things that I usually don't angry for (well, maybe not all) Just hope it get over fast....I'm suffering here and now....I hope you are here to hug me tight and pampered me to the MAX~I miss you

Nites~

2012-01-13T00:48:00.003+08:00

It's almost 1 a.m in the morning. I guess it's time for me to sleep now. Good night and sweet dreams world ^_^

Aquarius~ Is it true?

2012-01-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

Aquarius Strength Keywords:

- Witty
- Clever
- Humanitarian
- Inventive
- Original

Aquarius Weakness Keywords:

- Stubborn
- Unemotional
- Sarcastic
- Rebellious
- Aloof

Aquarius and Independence:

Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being.

Aquarius and Friendship:

Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another. They love to make people laugh and cheer people up and it makes them feel good to make others feel good. They do not expect anything in return for this could put a damper on their freedom, they live with no strings attached. They are very unconventional and always full of excitement, an Aquarius friend always makes life fun. They might offer you a spontaneous last minute camping trip with no supplies prepared, if you decide to go along, you will have a weekend to remember forever!

Aquarius and Business:

Aquarius likes to do something useful with their lives, mixing that with their amazing way with people, they make excellent politicians and social workers/psychologists. They are progressive thinkers and are great at forming new ideologies and theories, any type of research is very suited to Aquarius. Aquarius one downfall in the business world is the attention to detail, they like the grand ideas and massive plans and can make them happen, but the mundane day to day repetitive details causes them to procrastinate. Aquarius needs a secretary.
Aquarius and Temperament:

Aquarius tend to be rebels just for the sake of having their own way. Their stubbornness sometimes causes their failure, they will continue to do something their way even though others have proved it is wrong, they are very smart people and know it is wrong but they will continue just because it is their way, they are very fixed in opinion and stubborn when confronted. Despite their stubbornness and fixed opinion, they will never impose their ideas on others, they have respect for everybody's differences.

Aquarius Deep Inside:

Aquarius are in search of wisdom, they are very observant and they can gather their information objectively because emotions do not get in the way, they seem to be above emotions altogether and when they speak, they speak the truth. Sometimes it may be shocking or painful because of their disregard for the feelings of others, but they intend no harm, they call it like they see it and do not emotions cloud their judgment, they are very detached from emotion. It is not that Aquarius are unemotional, they just to not trust their emotions so they incorporate them into their ideas of who they are. As a result, if someone does not agree with their ideas, Aquarius sometimes takes it personally, not as much as other zodiac signs however as Aquarius is intellect driven and not emotionally driven. Sometimes they wonder if there is something in life that they are missing because they do not feel like other people feel. This does not necessarily prevent them from being involved in intimate relationships, they are capable of this but the person on the other end will always notice an air of detachment from Aquarius. Aquarius wonders 'why?' so much that they can question their existence. They wonder if what they are doing is useful, they want other people to notice them and appreciate them, this is caused by underlying insecurities that wonder if other people accept them for who they are but these are never brought to the surface because to an Aquarius, it does not matter that much because they know that they are special.
Aquarius in a Nutshell:

Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind. Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions. They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation. They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think. As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation. They welcome change because boredom is their enemy. Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius. Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique. Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live. Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded. It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person. Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even thought this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.

Blood Type O Personality

2012-01-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

Yup! I have blood type O which is the most common blood type in the world. I'm going to search a little more about my blood type.........So, now its about "Blood Type O Personality"

People with blood type O people are outgoing, energetic and social. They are the most flexible of the blood types. They easily start up projects but often have trouble following through because they give up easily. They are flighty and not too dependable. O types always say what's on their mind. They value the opinion of others and like to be the center of attention. Also, people with O blood are extremely self-confident.

You have a bright personality and lead others well. Your kind personality doesn’t let you leave people in trouble. You want to make your life dramatic, so people around you might not be so comfortable. Don’t forget there is happiness in ordinary life. You are proud of yourself and don’t like other people’s interruption. You would like to live in your own way, but over-confidence might return to you as a poison. When you fail you will feel in a slump due to your confidence. Take it easy and don’t forget even you might fail.

I wonder if its true...Some I can identify myself while others, I need help from my dear friends to tell me whether its true or not ^_^

Pass UNDANG TEST~

2012-01-12T21:38:00.003+08:00

It's not as difficult as I thought it will be. I waited for 2 hours plus and when I got in, I just answered for around 15 minutes and I'm out of the room. As long as you studied and you will be find. And I PASSED.....Thank god ^_^

My Passion Is Music

2012-01-11T17:24:00.002+08:00

I almost give up on it due to no support from my family. Piano. The only thing that could cheer me up when I’m down in the dumps. When I face any difficulties or had any arguments with my friends or my close ones, I play the piano and my depressed mood will become as cheerful as the sun during the spring. So shiny and refreshing. Shining its beautiful rays to light up all the wonderful things in the world. And sometimes, after the rain, when the sun shines, rainbows appear where it brings you to your dreams ^_^

Ok, back to the topic. From today onwards, I’m not going to give up my passion towards music anymore. I will playing and keep playing the piano with all my heart and passion till the end of my life. It’s the first thing that I decide myself to learn without and forcing by my parents and it’s the first thing that I insist to keep on going even though I’m so frustrated when I can’t play certain part right. But today, I can play them smoothly through hard practice and I enjoy every moment of it.
So, I would give up and I advice all of you. My lovely blog visitors, if you have passion towards something, do not give up. It’s always not to late to pick up that passion again.

Have a nice day ahead.

Dyes Hair~

2012-01-11T06:24:00.001+08:00

I dye my hair~ brown colour~ Milk tea brown...First time and do it myself...so happy~

Merry X'mas And A Happy New Year

2011-12-24T19:28:00.002+08:00

Christmas isn’t about toys
Christmas isn’t about money
Christmas is about giving food to the needy
Christmas is about loving your family
Christmas is to get time to spend with your family

What’s Christmas
Christmas is about the holiday
Christmas is about loving what you get
Christmas isn’t about sending cards

Christmas is about love

2 More Weeks!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-30T18:47:00.001+08:00

It's time to get to business! 2 more weeks of studying and we will head to the battle ,'SPM'....To all SPM candidates, happy studying and don procrastinate ^_^

Raindrops falling on my head

2011-10-20T21:41:00.003+08:00

I just love the rain. It doesn't mean that I hate the sun but I love the rain more. Rain can bring sadness and happiness. When I cry, the rain will wash away my sorrow. When I'm happy, the rain dance together with me. I always enjoy listening to the sound that is made when the raindrops hit the roof, the pavements, the car. It sound so calming.

And the best thing that I like about rain is, there's always rainbow after the rain. It reminds me that no matter how bad a day is, it will end and happiness will come.

Graduation Day 15/10/2011

2011-10-15T17:47:00.004+08:00

How should I express my feelings now?
In my heart,
I don't want this day to end.
I want to continue to take pictures with my friends and teachers,
Cause I know there'll not be another chance like today,
Me and my friends,
Wearing our robes,
Taking our graduation certificate,
But it is inevitable,
That happy moments go fast,
Without me realizing,
It's over,
But today shall be keep in my memories,
As one of the best days in my life.
Once a SABIAN, Always a SABIAN.

2011-10-10T22:34:00.000+08:00

2011-10-09T21:25:00.001+08:00

Hope that the coming week will be a pleasant one.

Good luck for the last 2 subjects for PMR candidates.

For the SABIAN Form 5,

Lets enjoy our last days together at this school.

2011-10-08T22:33:00.003+08:00

This week I would say, its good and bad week. This week is so complicated that I actually can't keep up with the changes around me.

Monday to Wednesday, as usual, went to school. Latih Tubi Terancang a.k.a Intensive training. We moved from the hall to classrooms and to hall again cause the Form 3s are having PMR. One more day and all of you will be free. Good luck and all the best. When I see people studying, it make me realize that there's only one more month to SPM. I wanted to study but I get distracted easily. I should be more persistent on my studying from now onwards.

Thursday, absent from school cause my friend, Kar Yan is not going and I can't find any transport to school. But, I did study at home so I feel at least I accomplished what I planned for the day at least.

Friday, many teachers and students and prefects are involved in the rehearsal for Mr.Tan' retirement. We will miss you Mr.Tan. Sleep through the whole hour of maths period. Hear some 'lame' jokes from Shawn till I can't stop making this face (=.=) The most (=.=) is when he tell me and Eu Nis that he heard this from the Astro Tutor SPM. (O.O) After school, go to Martin Tuition Centre to register for seminar. Reached home , bath and I take a nap. I'm too tired.

Next Saturday, I'm having my secondary school Graduation Day. I don't feel like graduating. I want to be with my friends just like this. Laughing on silly things that we accidentally said or done. I sure that I will miss PBSM so so so so much. Being in PBSM is my one of my best memory of secondary school. Weird isn't it? When I was 12, I wish I can grow up faster. Now that I'm 17, I wish not to grow up. Human beings are hard to satisfy.

I want to pursue my study to become a dentist. I wonder is I made the best choice for myself. This is what I'm frustrated about me. I have no confidence in myself. But, I know at least I start to make my own decision now. My confidence is growing stronger but I wish it to grow faster.

I think that's all for now.

Bye.

October is here~

2011-10-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

Its October~ One more month to SPM~

To all PMR candidates,
All the best and good luck!

To all SPM candidates,
Work hard within this one and a half month,
And fight with all we got!

Every journey of thousand miles start with a single step....

2011-09-27T21:24:00.002+08:00

I want to treasure every memory that happened in my life... The bitter ones, the sweet ones, the happy ones and the sad ones...I want to remember everyone of them... Especially those ones that is happy and sweet... Memories are irreplaceable... Memories during the high school years are the sweetest to me so far... ^_^ I want to remember them forever....

2011-09-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better

中秋节快乐！！！！^_^

2011-09-12T18:31:00.001+08:00

2011-09-09T23:28:00.001+08:00

Mooncakes~

2011-09-05T21:36:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday, I tried to make some snowskin mooncakes. And its kind of sucess but the lotus paste that I bought is a bit too sweet >.<

So, I decided to make my own lotus paste. Its turns out to be delicious and full of pleasant smell~Mmmmm........

So here are some pictures....

Random

2011-08-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

Now I know why gardeners wear long pants, shoes and gloves. Cause you will get cuts from the plants and mosquitoes!!!!

I helped my grandma to do gardening today. I was wearing shorts and slippers....And guest what, I got cuts at my legs and my palms T.T

But its fun though ^_^

Happy Holiday People~

2011-08-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.

PBSM ROCKS~

2011-07-27T22:36:00.005+08:00

Thank you to all the form 2, 3 and 4 members........
Thank you for,
Putting so much effort to make this AGM a sucess,
Sacrifice so much time to prepare the performances,
Supporting the BOD of PBSM 2010/2011,
The lovely souvenirs that I can't stop admiring,
Giving us,the AJKS such a GREAT and PLESANT memories for this whole year.

It seemed that I just started my Form 5 live as a senior,as an AJK for PBSM and PPS. Now, PBSM AGM is over,which means that I'm retired from this board. Trial is coming which means SPM is the next and *POOF* it'll be over and we will graduate from SAB. The PROBATES of PPS and taking the AJKS signature which means I will retire from PPS soon too. I felt so old yet I knew that throughout these years, I've matured, I've known how to make the right decision although I still doubt myself sometimes and I dare to voice out my opinion, not like the me when I was 13, I just accept whatever people tell me to do. Time to move forward and look into the future. To all the Form 5s....Good luck during the TRIALS.

To all 2011/2012 BOD of PBSM, even though you were disappointed about the post that you get today, but calm down and listen, we, the ex-AJKS, had taken a lot of time and consideration before we settle on this. We trust you with that particular post. Actually, to be honest, every post in the board is important. Me, as AJK Unit Tindakan Khas, you might think that "Oh! It's the last post! Sure there's nothing much to do!" You are wrong. I've been busy from the beginning of the year till now. Those small particulars are what matters the most. Sometime you might think that its minor but its essential. What I hope of you guys is you guys cooperate with each other to manage the PBSM from today onwards. Sooner or later you will realize, that you guys are a big family. That's what I felt. I felt so sad today because I know that I would not be working with the BOD that I've been working for the past year. I would not be discussing, laughing, playing,etc.etc. with them about PBSM activities, programme, camp, kawad.....I missed it eventhough it's just one day. We might have quarrels but we have a bond among us. I wish you guys will have it too.

Thank you. All the AJKS of PBSM 2010/2011. I'm happy to be part of the board. We might not be working together as we used to but we are still friends ^_^

Once a PBSM, Forever a PBSM

THANK YOU INSTRUCTORS~~~~

2011-07-18T12:13:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!! I'm so tired and blur that I forgot to thank the most important ones... THE INSTRUCTORS OF OUTBAC BROGA!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you,
For being so sporting,
For being so funny,
For the BRILLIANT AWESOME SPECTACULAR fire performances,
For your assistance to us during this 3 days 2 nights camp,
For pushing or should I say THROW me into the lake ^_^
And thank you for helping us to take our photos and take photos with us >.<
ARIGATOU~~~~

Sorry that I can't remember all the names but I remember the friendly faces of you guys....

Thank you so much AGAIN~~~

BROGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-07-17T23:27:00.005+08:00

To the campers of OUTBAC BROGA 15/07/2011-17/07/2011~

Thank you,
For your passion,
For your cooperation,
For your commitment,
For your brilliant performances,
For making this camp....
My last camp....
The form 5s last camp....
Our camp.....
The best,
The most memorable,
And last but not least,
Thanks for joining and giving us such a sweet and emotional memories.....
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

The Green House

2011-06-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

Went to 'The Green House' at Puchong with mom, grandma and my brother's girlfriend. Its a place that use anti-oxidant therapy technology / the Ecoparadise technology for promoting rejuvenation and perspiration. Previously its available in Japan but, since 5 years ago, its available in Malaysia!

The process is roughly like this, I went in and my mum registered. Then we were given a pair of clothes to wear, one BATHING towel and one FACIAL towel. We changed into the clothes and put our belongings into our locker which the keys were given at the counter. Then each of us was given a cup of water for us to drink when we were in the sauna room. When we were in the sauna room, we lie down on the red tiled floor which is SO HOT! But it feels comfortable. We sweat a lot. After 40 minutes, we went out and sit to cool down our body. We were given a small cup of fermented drink each because the 1 hour duration after you exercise or sweat a lot is the time where your body can absorb almost 100% of nutrients from the food or drink that you eat and drink. Then we went to bath with their product of soap which is organic and multi-purpose. It can be used as shower cream, shampoo, detergent, facial wash, fertilizer, etc......My skin feel so soft and my hair is so silky now! ^_^

There are 10 main benefits of this therapy.
- Activate sweat glands & promote perspiration
- Promote blood circulation & enhance 'chi' flow
- Remove body toxin & wastes
- Strengthen immune system & improve parasympathetic nervous system
- Promote relaxation and cell revitalization
- Improve metabolism
- Improve skin conditions & complexion
- Restore youthfulness
- Anti-aging
- Promote body rejuvenation

For more info, you can visit
http://www.thegreenhouse.com.my

2011-06-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice.

Happy Holiday~

2011-05-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

The first semester ended and now its the 2 weeks holiday. It might be a holiday for others but for the Form Fives, all teachers told us that this 2 weeks holiday is the time for us to do REVISION TO THE MAX MAX MAX!!!!

Well, I agree with them but we must take a break from doing revision. So, to all the students,'Happy Holiday'! and to all the Form Fives, its still a holiday but let 'STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD'^_^

To many people holidays are not voyages of discovery, but a ritual of reassurance.

Mid-term is OVER~ Now focus on piano practical 13/06/2011

2011-05-15T19:09:00.002+08:00

Well, this might be late but Mid-term examination is definitely OVER! Now I have to practice to get ready for my piano exam. I decided not to take the theory exam during August. It's really too near to the trials. I don't take I can cope up with it. You can say that I don't have time management but that's me. I can only focus one thing after another. But, I swear that I will also STUDY on my academics! I don't to study last minute ANYMORE! I can't take the pressure! Hehe~ 5 years of lessons are enough to teach me that!

2011-03-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

I'm thankful that I'm in this squad...
I'm thankful that I have such a nice commander...
I'm thankful that I have all the squad members who is so spirited and supportive...
BUT THE THING THAT I'M MOST THANKFUL IS TO SEE, TO FEEL, TO DO THIS TOGETHER ALL 31 OF US~~
I LOVE ALL OF YOU
MUACKZ MUACKZ

9 Reasons For Donating Blood

2011-02-27T21:23:00.001+08:00

1. Someone needs blood every 3 seconds in this country. An average of 40,000 units are needed every day in the U.S. There is no substitute for human blood.

2. 60% of the population will need blood at some time in their lives, yet less than 5% of the population donates.

3. Disasters like car accidents, fires, and other trauma cases happen every day and these patients need blood, and rarely do they need only one pint. A bleeding trauma victim can run through 100 units of blood in no time.

4. In Central Florida, because of our growing and aging population, as well as the huge expansion of health care facilities, our blood usage is growing at three times the national rate. Blood usage outpaces donor collections.

5. If all eligible donors would donate on a regular basis, four to six times a year, blood needs would be met and shortages could be a thing of the past.

6. For decades this nation relied on a large pool of blood donors from "The Greatest Generation," the heroic World War II veterans who considered blood donation to be an on-going patriotic duty. Sadly, that generation is fast disappearing and other new donors are not stepping forward to replace them.

7. Donating blood is safe and a healthy thing to do. Not only do you get a free mini physical, including blood pressure check, heart rate, temperature and iron levels, but it's the fastest way to lose a pound!

8. For men, there is a life-saving benefit to donating blood. Men are at higher risk for "hemochromatosis or iron overload" a potentially deadly problem where too much iron builds up in the blood. It can lead to heart disease and other major health problems. Research shows if men give blood 3 times a year, they can reduce their iron overload and therefore their risk of a heart attack by as much as 50%!

9. Blood donors are true heroes. In fact, your one blood donation will be broken down into several components, enabling you, with just one donation, to save up to three lives!

2011-02-20T20:03:00.002+08:00

Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a gift, accept it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is a sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a tragedy, face it.
Life is a duty, perform it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a mystery, unfold it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is an opportunity, take it.
Life is a journey, complete it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is a beauty, praise it.
Life is a struggle, fight it.

Live life to the fullest.

2011-02-12T12:23:00.002+08:00

Is there any stab as deep as wondering where and how much you failed those you loved?

Happy New Year & New Year Resolution~

2011-01-01T02:36:00.002+08:00

New Year Resolution:
-Study hard and play hard.
-Do my best in SPM 2011
-Do my best in piano theory and practical exam.
-Be optimistic.
-Learn to appreciate things and people around me.
-Always smile ^_^
-Sleep early and rise early
-Have more confidence and opinion

We will start a new life in a new year by saying goodbye to the past and say help for future. Stay with the moto, "Impossible is nothing!'. It depend whether you want to make it possible or not. Our fate is made by our hands. All happiness and sadness of 2010 be cherished in the album of 2010 and a new page of album be prepared for 2011 for new things ahead!

For those who id taking UPSR, PMR and SPM, good luck and try your best. For those who is going to school, welcome back to school. Lastly, for those who is going college, enjoy and explore the new life~ HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2010-12-27T18:59:00.001+08:00

Who sit at home being good kids. Who aren’t drop dead gorgeous like the girls staring back at us off the covers of fashionable teen magazines. Who don’t drink, don’t party hard, and would rather read books or hang out and talk with friends than hit up some party joint and jump into pools and whatnot.

This is for the girls who choose their own genre of music, who don’t simply listen to the mainstream pop blasted from radios. This is for the girls who bite their nails, who feel self-conscious about every single thing about them, who tug on their hair while they’re nervous.

This is for the girls who actually care about something other than how they look, or how hair naturally curls. This is for the girls who cry at movies, sympathize with friends, and extend helping hands to people who need it. This is for the girls who play their music and go with it.

This is for the girls who wear glasses, who wear braces, who have frizzy hair, who have extreme ranges for height or they’re stuck in the middle. This is for the only children, the oldest, the youngest, the middle children. This is for the ones who sit at home and have to listen endlessly to their friends, both guys and girls moan about their love lives while they patiently endure being a supportive friend. This is for the ones who hope and dream and often settle for being second best without any complaint.

Above all, this is for those girls who see themselves as hopeless and forgotten. This is for the girls who dream so much that they forget how to dream. This is for the girls who have fallen and need a helping hand to get back up; only they’ve been the helping hand for so long they’ve forgotten how to fall. This is for the girls on the ground, the ones who are learning how to fly. Because mark my words, when you fly you’ll soar so high eagles will be envious.

This is a post telling you that you are loved. You are beautiful. No one can ever take that away from you. You will fly and you will shine so brightly. Yes. Yes you will.

December means X'mas!!!!

2010-12-02T09:46:00.003+08:00

Happy Holiday ^_^

2010-11-05T02:45:00.002+08:00

Exam still going on....11 more days and we are FREE!!! Except for those who is taking chinese....They still need to suffer for 2 more days...Good Luck people...I know its kind of late but better late than never right?

This exam is the hardest cause I don't have the nervous feel when exam comes. Does it means I don't have the heart to study anymore? NO! Its just maybe that I only feel nervous when I see those papers especially when I CAN'T ANSWER THEM!!!!

2010-11-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

Every parent will ask, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Some parents forced their children to be what they want them to be like doctors, lawyers and so on...They don't ask what their children really likes and want to be...Well, me parents did ask me the question and I said "I don't know"...Not that I don't know what I want to be in the future but I want some time to think about it. I always have a dream to be a musician. I wonder what will they say. ^_^ I just want to fulfill my dream...The thing that I love to do...So, do what you like to do or you will regret for your whole life

Every great dream begins with a dreamer.
Always remember,
you have within you the strength,
the patience,
and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.

2010-10-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

It's raining....
I love the rain...
I feel the rain is washing off my sadness, my stress, my frustration.
Left only my happiness with me ^_^

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

2010-10-09T01:49:00.002+08:00

Everyone has different opinion on what filled their world. Some say their world is painted with beautiful and bright colours. Some say their world is filled with romance. Some of them say their world is filled with stress.

My world is full of music. I adore music very much. I feel very relax when I'm surrounded with music. Its like the music is keeping me in my own world. World of music. Where those beautiful melodies sing in the air. Serenade every particle it can found. Music is so amazing. Music can describe someone's feelings. Music can motivate someone. Music is something that everyone need and love. Is there anyone who hates music? Who will groan when he or she heard music no matter how beautiful it is.

Music is an art. An art that only can be feel, can be admire by those who really love, appreciate this magical power.

A painter paints pictures on canvas.
But musicians paint their pictures on silence.

2010-10-03T20:06:00.002+08:00

October.....

Last year, by now I will be freaking out cause PMR is just a few days away. Studying like there's no tomorrow. Having nightmares that I'll not able to answer the questions and having a bad result.

Its been 4 years since I'm in SAB. It felt as if I just enter SAB yesterday and with a blink of an eye and whoosh I'm form 4 now. Time pass so quickly.

October brings a lot of memories. The month I went depressed, stressed, happy and freedom. I wonder how October feels this year. ^_^

2010-09-27T22:13:00.002+08:00

Life can be so fragile. We can be living today but we might not tomorrow. Treasure and cherish the one you love before its too late. Don't wait till your regret it.

Never take someone for granted,
Hold every person close to your heart,
Because you might wake up one day,
And realize that you've lost a diamond,
While you were too busy collecting stones....

2010-09-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yes, when you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you, see you through
I'll be there, and there is nothing, I won't do

1-I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time, promise you
For you I will,

I will shield your heart from the rain
I won't let no harm come your way
Oh, these arms will be your shelter
No, these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you

I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you right or wrong

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time, promise you
For you I will,

Lay my life on the line, for you I will fight, oh
For you I will die, with every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my word, I'll give it all
Put your faith in me, put your faith in me
And I'll do anything...oh...

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength, anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time, promise you
For you I will.

HAPPY 53th INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

2010-08-30T21:30:00.002+08:00

Well, it has been 53 years since Malaysia got its independence in 1957. We should be proud that Malaysia is a country of multi-racial, full of coulours, religions and beliefs. However, recently, there is some citizens who is so racism who discriminate other races. This is not a country for only Malays or Chinese or Indians. This is a country for everyone. We are 1 Malaysia. Its disappointing that after 53 years of independence, we still can't overcome this problem. Come on people, lets cooperate and make 1 Malaysia a reality.

HAPPY 53TH INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

Marriage.....What does it really mean?

2010-08-22T11:58:00.000+08:00

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Thanks 09/10 AJKS and Hi 10/11 AJKS

2010-07-29T17:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the AJKS of 09/10 for trusting me for this post. Thanks you very much for giving me a chance to carry a responsibility in myself. I don't know what to say. And Thanks for all the activities and the memories of this year. Thank you very much.

And CONGRATZ for all the new board of AJKS!!!!! Hope next year will be better. ^_^

PBSM ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Haircut

2010-06-20T19:15:00.004+08:00

Today went to have a haircut before school reopens....

My hair cut change from this...

TO THIS!!!

PBSM CAMP!!!!

2010-06-20T19:01:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the late post cause after the camp, I was attacked by a high fever. Even I'm online, I can't really blog....This year camp was FUN!! Well, every camp has their own specialty and fun....

First day, ICE-BREAKING!!! OMG!!! I loved the snake tangling thing!!!! Can we play it again some other time? I'm sure everyone will enjoy it....We went to the Tanjung and sort of lepak there....XD That, the end of day 1.

Second day, we were woken up by the form 5s around 2.30am for OBH....Its fun and I wanna do it again...I miss OBH so much...Then we sleep....Another thing that I miss which the the crowing of the chickens!!!! OMG!!! They're so cute!!!Had amazing race. I love the activities though me and my partner MING YAN!!!!!!!!!! didn't win but we both love it!!!!Night walking. First time walking in the jungle alone. SCARY! And I fell down into the PAYA and I'm covered with MUD!!!That's FUN anyway. End of day 2.

Day 3, body painting...We paint Brandon as TIGER!!! KAWAII!!!Then we had the Explore Race...First time touching 'belut', peeling the coconut with my teeth,filling a bamboo filled with water and touching and smelling the LATEX!!!OMG!!! THE LATEX SMELL LIKE SHIT!!But I miss those experiences....I wanna do it again....Then closing ceremony and we went back to KL....

I miss the chickens...I miss the night sky full of stars....I miss everything about camp....Thanks AJKS and the form 5s for the wonderful time in the camp

Happy Birthday

2010-05-28T14:12:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday! Bro!

I don't know what to say......

But you are a very very good brother....

Have a nice year~~~

2010-05-17T02:21:00.003+08:00

Today went jogging. Long time never jogging. Went to a place where all I can see is trees and the sky. When I look at them. I remembered how I used to look at the trees and the blue sky when I'm unhappy. It does calm me down with its beautiful patterns. The trees overlapping each other. The clear blue sky with the white clouds. Always changing. I always look at the clouds. Sometimes I saw a rabbit, sometimes I saw a puppy, and many cute things. By looking at the beauty of the sky and trees. Somehow, I'll forget how upset I am.

After jogging, played badminton. Long time never play so my skills also not good already. Badminton is the first sport I learn and also my favourite beside swimming. I love badminton because I feel satisfied every time I able to hit the shuttlecock back. I love swimming because its a sport where you wont feel hot or tired until you go out of the pool.

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May

2010-05-02T20:57:00.003+08:00

Wow! It's May already. May, the month of examination. I hate examination but its an opportunity to test myself how much I understand what I learn. May, the month where a lot of friends' birthday. Sabrina, See Kee, Sheau Li, Sheau Wen and lots more.(May babies)

I don't really realise its May until I look at the calendar. 14th of May is the Mid-Term Examination. Seriously, I'm very nervous. Form 4 subjects are new to me. Form 4s can't memorise anymore but apply everything that we learn. Thats the different between Form 1, 2,and 3 and Form 4 and 5.

Tomorrow's school. The cycle comes again. Repeating day by day. Just hoping for something interesting or exciting to happen...

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Sick

2010-04-28T22:08:00.003+08:00

Well, I've been coughing and sneezing for almost one week. I just hope this sickness cure faster. I'm not going to school tomorrow. kind of happy but I do miss my friends a bit.

I wonder how's everyone today. As for me, I slept for a long time. At least I feel much better now. Not coughing so often.

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Life

2010-04-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

Life is like music. Everyone's life is different. They have their own way to lead their own life. Just like music, every song has its own style, its own meaning. Everyone is unique in their own way. Everyone have different daily activities, different attitude, different look, different voice and many more. These are all the characteristics that make someone unique. There are no two person who is 100% alike. There must be something that make them different.

So, don't force yourself to be someone else. You will feel very stressful, very unhappy. Why make yourself so miserable? Life is not something that make you miserable. Its something that you should treasure. Something precious to you. So, live your life the way you want it to be. The way that will make you happy everyday. If someone achieve something that you don't achieve, don't be sad cause you will achieve something different that you can proud of.

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2010-04-04T19:35:00.002+08:00

Today went to visit my ancestors's grave. Woke up around 5.30am...Very sleepy... Listening to songs in my mobile phone all the way to Lukut...Its quite fun to meet my cousins again...We chatted about a lot of things...Somehow, now I felt I'm closer to them...Last time, I used to get away from them as far as possible cause I don't really know how to communicate with them...Well, things change and I like this change...It makes me feel close to the relatives on my father's side. ^_^

Now I want to make a habit of posting a motivational phrase everytime I blog...This is to remind myself as well as my blog readers to never give up no matter how hard the obstacle is...If we never give up, one day, we will achieve what we fight for...

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2010-03-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

No matter what the result is, we were the best in our hearts...We did our best...And today had become a history...We still love each other and SABRINA!!!!!!!!! I BELIEVE SHE'S A VERY GOOD COMMANDER!!! AND VERY CUTE!!! PBSM ROCKS FOREVER!!

2010-03-01T21:32:00.002+08:00

So fast and its March already. I don't know that time pass so quickly like this before. Its feels like I'm wasting the time provided to me. Those precious time. I didn't treasure it. I can't get back those wasted time no matter what I do. So, from now on, I'm going to treasure every moment I have. Seriously, I feel that throughout these months, life had been very hectic. Everything rushing.

Everyone seems to be very moody these days. Even those who always smile last time. Those who could cheer me up with their smiles. Of course I know there are no people with people who has no problems in their life. Or maybe I'm the naive one, who thinks so stupidly of life.

2010-02-12T22:27:00.001+08:00

CNY is here....Hope everyone is eager to celebrate it....Get more angpao's people!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2010-02-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

Finally, the construction is done....I wish i can blog more but its time to sleep...so I think next time then......Ciao~

2010-02-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

For everyone's information, this blog will be under construction until its done....

2010-01-17T20:58:00.002+08:00

Its the third week of January already....Time passes so quickly....But,somehow, I still feel that I'm not use to year 2010...Or maybe not use to form 4 life yet... XD

Tomorrow is the result of who will enter the KAWAD team....

CNY is coming...I still need to buy a shirt and a mini skirt...I think I'll spent my CNY with tanned skin XD....I'm sure that I'm going to put a lot of make up...HAHA....

2010-01-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

Form 4 years is....*don't know how to describe it* Somehow fun...Cause got to learn new things and meet my friends again....Somehow miserable....Cause so many rules, still can't adapt myself with the new life of upper form....I miss the lower form life....Miss meeting See Kee, Vivien, Wei Hwei and others during the recess time....So many things change....When 2010 arrived I feel weird....I don't feel like form 4....I feel like I'm still stuck at form 3....

One week had passed....tomorrow got KAWAD! Yay! I reallt miss those moments very much...Hope can meet See Kee and the other form 3's since when I asked them, they said their parents don't allow them to enter KAWAD....Next week will be better...I'm sure!!! ^_^

Today didn't go jogging but cannot online also T.T....Went to piano lesson then go to Tesco to buy some stationeries then I bought a new dress for CNY!!! Nice!!! ^_^Now I can online one or twice a week....*sigh* I wish I can online more often....

2010-01-03T12:25:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is school!!! Can't believe holidays past so quickly....Don't have the go to school mood....Form 4 life...I wonder how's tat....I hope I can cope with Form 4 life which many people says that its tough....Its not a honeymoon year...Of course I know that....*sigh* Guess I'll find out all the answer to these confusion tomorrow.....

But one good thing about going to school is........I can meet my friends!!! I truely miss them!!!!

PMR Result.....

2009-12-24T22:28:00.002+08:00

I cant sleep at all last night....Went to school around 9.50am.....Wait until 11 something only get result....OMG! So nervous! The more I wait, the more nervous I am... And I get straight A's!!! So happy!!!

Went to Times Square with cousins....OMG! So many ppl....go walk walk.....then bought tickets to watch AVATAR!!!! The movie...erm.....how to say? Okok la.....Not what I expect it to be.....Bought one shorts for RM 30!! O.O But nice.....^_^

2009-12-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

Tomorroe is the day....The day we will know the result of the thing we are fighting for...Yes! Tomorrow is the day all PMR condidates of 2009 know their result!!! I'm nervous...Everyone say I sure can...But I'm not sure myself....Hope so la....

GOOD LUCK TO ALL PMR CANDIDATES OF 2009!!

Back from Malacca

2009-12-15T11:35:00.003+08:00

Wow! It had been years since I wrote something here. Went to Malacca for four days. Its an annual family gathering. Well, I this year i felt different compared to the previous years. I'm not sure why. I think its because I spent more time with my cousins this year. I don't stay in the room with my mom. First time felt so fun to be with them. We spent most of the mornings and afternoons at the condominium. We played PS2, poker cards, mahjong and shared some songs. At night after dinner, we went to Jonker Street which is very crowded. OMG! Not the Jonker Street I have in my memory. But still I had fun. On the last night, we went out to the *I don't know the name* to see the lights. However, its not fully lighted up. So, not as nice as the last time went to see it. Besides, we went to the Nyonya Street *don't know whether its the right name* *don't care* for shopping. But I didn't buy anything also. Cause nothing interest me T.T Last day, went to eat curry laksa. Its a bit different from the ones at KL. Quite nice.

First time see my newborn baby niece. OMG! I'm so old already T.T Not sure should call her newborn cause she already 10 months old. She's so cute. And she let everyone to carry her and she don't cry. I mean those crying that hurts your ears. She only makes the want to cry face but not the ears-ache sounds. ^_^ And she bites my finger. Wow! That hurts. Her teeth sure are razor sharp. *hehe* About the photos. I think I'll upload them later...

对不起

2009-12-07T16:10:00.002+08:00

我不是想这样对你。我不懂我说了，你会怎样。我真的很怕。我不懂要怎样面对你。我是一个不敢面对事情的人。对不起。请你原谅我。请你原谅我这个那么自私的人。我只会为自己想，不会为其他人想。所以，我是该被人打，被人骂。

Add Maths!

2009-12-05T19:37:00.002+08:00

Actually, there's tuition for physics today, but since the teacher is busy, NO TUITION! Yay! ^_^ After attending a few lessons for form 4 subjects, I feel quite ok except for add maths. OMG! I'm dizzy when answering the question for the first chapter! Not used to the concepts. *sigh* Takes time. I wish I can stay at year 2009 forever but I can't.*sigh* Time passes so fast! Many things undone.*sobs*

哭包。。

2009-12-04T16:16:00.002+08:00

我是一个很容易哭的人。虽然一些小小的事情，但是我会哭。如果我是受伤的话，我不会哭。但是，如果我的心受伤的话，不管是那个事情小也好，大也好，我也会哭。如果那个事情，对我很重要的话，我会伤心。我会哭到跟严重。最经，我都有哭。有时因为压力，有时因为对我很重要的事情。有可能我是个哭包吧。一直这样哭下去。但是，我很难控制我自己。

Tuition

2009-12-03T18:13:00.002+08:00

Tuition starts 2 days ago. Time pass really quick. Its December and sooner January comes. Somehow, I don't want the holiday to end. Somehow, I don't want to face PMR results. I'm scare I cannot accept the result on that day. I don't want to see it. Tuesday was English and Biology. Most of the question will be in sucjective and there are many essays. OMG. o.O Wednesday was Chemistry. Well, all three is subject is quite easy to understnad to me. For now. I'm not sure how I feel about them later. Today will be maths. Actually I'm more concern about Add Maths. Can time don't pass so fast? Thats an impossible request cause time never go faster or slower. Its us that feel time passing quick or slow.

So Sweet

2009-12-01T16:27:00.002+08:00

I'm 220, you're 284. What does this means?

This is a very nice way to tell how you feel about someone. I found it in a newspaper.

The factors of 220 are=1,2,3,4,5,10,11,20,22,44,55,110
The factors of 284 are=1,2,4,71,142

The sum of the factors of 220=284
The sum of factors of 284=220

So, this means my heart belong to you and your heart belong to mine. Its so sweet...

Time passes so quickly

2009-12-01T16:21:00.002+08:00

First day of December. The day of PMR result is getting nearer. I'm very nervous.*sigh* Can't be helped. Time passes so quickly. I want time to slow down its pace. I want to live slowly. But time just went on its own pace. We may delay but time won't. Time just go on and on. Time won't wait for anyone. Everyone has 24 hours a day. No extra yet no less. However, we still waste our time. We don't make full use of it. That's why sometime we feel time passes quickly, sometime time passes slowly. Time doesn't change its pace at all. It's us which make us feel time change pace.

3 in the morning!

2009-11-30T02:57:00.003+08:00

What time is it now? Its almost 3 in the morning and I'm still not asleep yet. *sigh*Am I having the insomnia again? I toss and turn but I still can't fall asleep. Can someone tell me a way that can make people sleep? I guess no one will answer since its so late already. *sigh* I'm thinking too much that I keep misunderstanding things. I think I should change that habit but its hard since I developed it for a long time.*sigh*Its holiday but sometime I don't feel happy about this. Maybe I'm too bored somtimes. I guess I have to find something to do. I don't really havr the mood to blog. I have many things to write but when I turn to this page, it seems that I can't type anything. Why?*sigh* Guess, I'll never know...

泡温泉。。。

2009-11-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

今天，去泡温泉。。。第一次去泡，不是我想象中那样。。。所以有点吓倒。。。哥哥说，今天的水，一点都不热。。。我也是觉得不是那么热。。。。他说，有一次，真的很热。。皮肤可以熟。。听听下，有点恐怖。。。我泡温泉，泡到文凭的皮肤，变成粉红色。。。觉得很晕。。。回到家。。。又很累，奇怪的是，我睡不到。。。=.=真的是啊。。。但是也是一个很好的纪念的事情。。。

Done

2009-11-28T18:28:00.002+08:00

Finally, I'm done with blog layout hunting and blog layout editing. This layout has hidden meaning to me. Something that I wish I owned but I couldn't cause it's not something essential. Even though I want it very much but I think I'll have it when I can afford to have it. Timing is not that right now I guess.

Renovating Blog

2009-11-28T17:07:00.001+08:00

You might notice that there are some elements missing in my blog cause I'm finding a new blog layout.....

没用。。。没用。。。没用！！！

2009-11-25T13:37:00.003+08:00

有时，我是不是说了一些会伤害别人的话？我觉得我常常都说错话。。但是，说出去的话不能收回。我真的很后悔，但是又不能做些什么。。。我是不是越来越没用？说话不会想好好来才说。。真是笨蛋。。。

我真是没用。。

2009-11-24T19:57:00.001+08:00

有时候，我真的想太多。想到自己伤心，想到头痛，一直在误会。。。但是我不懂为什么我会想那么多。如果一些对我很重要的事情，我会想跟多。。。很多东西我都躲在心里。。不敢跟别人说。。。因为我怕别人会不开心。。。但是多在心里，我又觉得很辛苦。。唉~~怎样呢？又是当我一直想的时候，觉得自己很没用，很想帮他们但是又不懂怎样帮。。我真的是一个没用的人啊！什么都帮不了。。。只会让人家生气我。。对我反感。。

22/11/09

2009-11-23T00:32:00.004+08:00

一直以来，我对自己没有信心，没有希望。其实，我没有想过未来要怎样，以前，什么决定都好，都是父母帮我决定好了。他们叫我走哪一条路，我就走哪条路。当我认识你的时候，你教了我，自己的路要自己决定。虽然父母是为你好，但是你也要想一想你要的是什么？你让我变了一个新的人。一个会作决定的人。不会做一些辉仍自己后悔的决定。不管那个决定是什么，你觉得是对的就跟着哪条路吧。你让我学会了怎样看这个世界。怎样好好的生活。你让我看到阳光。你让我觉得这个世界里不是那么没希望的。你让我学会怎样从一个好的方向看一个事情。

其实，我一直觉得，我的家人一点都不关心我。其实是我不会去想。他们其实对我很好。每个事情都是为了我。为了我的未来。不要我后悔。所以，虽然，到今天，有时候，他们做的决定我伸得很不喜欢，但是我知道那些都是为我好。我也会跟他们说我的意见，但是不会像以前那样，不会让我家人伤心。

Life

2009-11-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Life is short,
Life is unpredictable,
Life is precious,
Life is irreplaceable,

How your life goes is depends on what you decide, what you choose,
So, make the right decision, make the right choice, or else,
You will regret,
Live your life to the fullest so that,
You will not regret....

Last day of school

2009-11-14T15:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of my form 3 freedom moments,

means,

last day of school for this year,

last day of my lower form life,

last day for some of form 3 students who planned to transfer next year,

I miss my friends,

Somehow, I miss school......

Memories will always be remembered....

All of us laugh so much yesterday....

Miss it so much....

Happt holidays to form 3s and good luck to form 5s

Academics,academics and academics!

2009-11-09T13:36:00.003+08:00

All that you all say about is academics, academics and academics!!! Don't you all have other topics in your minds other than that? I know academics is important for my future and I know you all don't want me to follow my brother footsteps. But aren't you the one who told me that its ok if I did my best? Aren't you? Then why you brought up this topic again? Why? Why? If you are not fed up of it, I am! Just because you think its right for you then its right for me. Well, it might be but, can't you let me decide which path I want to go? Can't you let me think and don't decide everything for me? What is best in your mind might not be the best for others! Don't you realise that you are giving me stress even the exam is over? Don't you realise that I'm trying to avoid to have a long conversation with you? All you talk about is academics. You never ask me how I feel. All you want is me to follow what you think, what you want me to be. You never ask me whether I truly want it that way or not. I do have my opinion but you always cut me out when I want to tell you.

To You-Know-Who-You-Are

2009-11-07T12:02:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry that I make you uncomfortable. Ya, I admit I have attention from my mom. Its not that I don't like it or what. Sometime I'm frustrated of something. You should talk to your parents about what you have in you mind. I know this sound idiotic to you but I don't know how to explain it to you. I know how you feel cause my parents is just the same in the past few years until I explain how I feel to them and how I wish they can treat me. I know its easier to say than done but I wish you will try.

p/s: You want to know why I like to follow you so much? Okay, I tell you. I just want to be friend with you and I'm sorry if I disturb you or make you uncomfortable.

Jejak Maklumat

2009-11-05T16:55:00.002+08:00

Went for 'jejak maklumat' yesterday. There were 3 of us in a group. Its fun and tiring at the same time. I can't believe running around Taman Tasik Pemaisuri can be so tiring. Maybe because of we were running and thinking about what to do next. We had to work out physical and mental at the same time. After getting the clues and finish the 'essay', we found out that we missed one STATION!!! *sigh* Its to late for us to turn back when we realise about it. The essay part is very the 'za dao'. When I read question 7, its a MORAL QUESTION!!! OMG!!! I didn't study moral for don't know how many months!!!Having a hard time answering that question. I'm surprised that I still can remember how to answer it. Then went back to school.

Well,skipped school today. And surfing the net, take some quizzes at facebook etc...

Random...

2009-11-02T18:45:00.002+08:00

Shawn: I don't really think you're super handsome but your look us ok but one thing i really hate about you is your attitude....I really don't like!!! Sorry if it does hurt you....

Skipped school today. Bored to be at home but still I think its better than being at school. Played games, surf the net, renovated my blog and so on....

October ends and November comes...Time flies. Time waits for no one. Its either you spend it wisely or just waste it...I'm not sure whether I'm spending my time wisely or not but at least I know that I don't laze around the whole day.

Kind of addicted to Joe Hisaishi songs..He is one of the composers that I admire...

:(

2009-10-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

mint: Do i know you? If this is another joke, please get away from my blog. Thanks

Today went to school and played the game again. Its so funny *inside joke*. Hahaha....(sorry Hyn-yi) Then, got poem competition which is quite interesting...And there are a few people who keep pointing at me when Pn. Wan Rosna ask who can sing well? And tomorrow is the audition! OMG! Can i skip it? I'm not good at this!!!!!!!!!!

Random

2009-10-28T20:12:00.003+08:00

Little Guy: You don't really need to know who is that...

Today is the pelantikan. I don't know why, half way through the "ceremony", I cannot breathe. I struggle for air and I'm very dizzy. *sigh* very embarassing. Then went to hear the talk about mentality and JPA thing. Don't really pay attention and keep black out.

Played a board game that Sabrina which is fun. Hyn-Yi is very happy cause she is the winner for 2 rounds. Should i go to school tomorrow? Don't feel like going.

2009-10-27T19:05:00.003+08:00

Hyn-Yi: FYI, its just something to compare...doesn't mean i want to make babies=.=and i know i'm older than you but just a few months earlier....

Today had the rehersal for tomorrow's "pelantikan".....and just as always, school is very bored...however, the debate workshop is kind of fun....

Meaningful

2009-10-25T09:27:00.002+08:00

Fall in love or fall in hate
Get inspired or be depressed
Ace a test or flunk a class
Make babies or make art
Speak the truth or lie and cheat
Dance on tables or sit in the corner
Life is divine chaos, embrace it
Forgive yourself. Breathe
And enjoy the life....

Choral Speaking Workshop

2009-10-24T17:15:00.003+08:00

Little Guy: =.= ok la.....
Hyn-Yi: But still, its better to talk about that privately...
Yun: I'm not taking the grade 8 exam next year...I take the year after that...

Today went for the choral speaking workshop which is quite fun...But since I took medicine before I went to school, I'm a bit dizzy and sleepy during the workshop...I think i have to work more on my self-confidence...I'm so nervous when they pass the microphone to me...OMG!!! I feel so embarassed...It's a good experience to attend this workshop...Learn a lot from it...

Bored...

2009-10-21T15:55:00.002+08:00

Hyn-yi: Can you ask that question privately?
もり:Oh,ok...going to take a long time for that....

School is super duper boring today....worst than staying at home....i barely doing anything at school...just sit and doing NOTHING!!!! *sigh* i should brought something to entertain myself.... today is so boring that i don't know what to write for the things at school....

Got piano lesson later and it's raining so heavily now....OMG!!!

Stop monopolizing the laptop!!!

2009-10-19T08:19:00.003+08:00

I feel its better i reply the cbox msg this way....

もり: Haha....i also dunno how to reply you....
Sabrina: I know you read my blog la...thanks ^_^
Keet Mann: Sorry la buddy....now i go add ok?

My brother totally monopolize the laptop....just because you are the elder one, you can monopolize it? Hey, i want to have my share of the laptop!!!*sigh*but he's going to use it again later :( Do i have to wake up early in the morning if i want to use the laptop?? thats so not fair....
but i cannot do anything about it....*sob*

i feel like rotting here...cause when i finish my chores...i will be sitting and think "Wat should i do next?" and end up nothing!!! *screams*

why i drink iced-water yesterday? how can i forgot that i can't drink cold drinks for now!!!OMG la!!!!make myself suffer......how can i be so forgetful!!!!*sigh*

PMR is over

2009-10-14T22:52:00.002+08:00

PMR is over...feel much better....no more stress....overall, the papers are ok but Science paper 2 is kind of tough....but it passed so don't think about it....but i feel something missing....i mean there is some slot that i used to study but now empty....feel bored and don't know what to do....i think i have to plan wisely so that i don't waste the precious time i have...

went to Sushi King today with my brother....i just love sushi very much.....^_^so happy!!!!!

i feel weird....why i feel so tired and dizzy these days? aren't the exam stress is over or something is wrong with my body system? hope it will ease soon...cause i don't like this feeling... make me feel very disoriented....

went to christopher's blog to watch the agm slideshow....i really want to cry...i love PBSM so much....it sure brings back the memories.....why on the agm day i fell sick....i really want to go but i too sick that i can't leave the bed.... :(

很累。。

2009-09-22T22:40:00.003+08:00

我的心情一天比一天不好。。我不懂为什么。。有可能是考试的压力吧。。我这几天都觉得很累。。每一天都睡很久。。根本不像我。。我平时没有睡那么多。。。有可能我太勉强我自己吧。。我的头很痛。。我是不够睡啊？还是我给我自己压力呢？此时我的心情，不是不好。自不过，那些压力吧我的心情往下跌。。我真的很累很累。。很想大大声的叫出来。。。但是，我又做不到。。咳。。我都不懂怎么办才好。。

Mixed feelings...

2009-09-21T14:19:00.003+08:00

Its holidays but no holiday mood at all. Maybe because I've been busy studying for PMR. My mood changes all the time. Like the waves. Sometimes up sometimes down. I don't feel like myself since the holidays started. I feel very tired and uncomfortable the whole day for no reason. For the first time I've been sleeping for 12 hours.

Everything seems to be out of place. I tried to put things together but it seem to become worse. *sigh* Really don't know what to do. Everyone is giving me pressure. Giving me pressure doesn't make me better but make me worse. I'm someone who don't know how to handle with pressure. Too much pressure can make me insane.

random

2009-09-13T13:36:00.002+08:00

Another jogging day.....kind of bored....i'm banned from the internet on weekdays....i hope i don't get banned even on weekends....i've been studying but my head like its gonna burst...

Today i lost the bear that i hung on my handphone... :(

是的。。我不是真正的快乐

2009-09-06T20:45:00.002+08:00

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了你已经决定了
你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深切切淡掉了

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后再后悔着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你知道真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让配角全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

Jogging,jogging,jogging

2009-09-06T15:44:00.004+08:00

Its a weekly routine but this week i feel bored and not my usual self so, i took some pictures...

Better without my clip...

I kind of regret doing this pose...

The brightest picture...

Taman Tasik Pemaisuri...

Don't know what i'm taking...

What a cute duck...too bad i can't take the video of it...

I like the trees...

4.9.09

2009-09-05T22:05:00.003+08:00

friday for this meek is kind of nice for me...i don't know why everyone seem so hyper on friday... maybe cause its end of the weekdays and everyone can have a rest after the hectic intensive traning for PMR...most of my friends act very weird on friday...i myself is kind of hyper that day too...i don't act the way i do during the normal days...maybe all of us is too stress up...i don't know about my friends but i know that i'm stress up...time passes so quickly...its only one more month left for all the form 3s...i hate to remind myself about this but its the fact and i have to face it no matter what...there's no other choice...one and only choice is to study hard for this.... but what i'm doing now is blogging which is something i should not do now...but i don't really care about it...i need a place for me to forget about all the stress even for a few hours....or else, i'm going to b e crazy like the me when i'm going to face UPSR....

school reopens

2009-08-31T20:25:00.002+08:00

tomorrow school reopens...i don't have the feel of going to school tomorrow...i want to have a few more days to relax my mind...many things happen during this week of second semester break... soon september arrives and i have around 36 days to PMR...something that i don't want to face yet i think...i wish i have more time to think. to decide what should i do. to make plans for the 36 days before this examination...maybe i'm afraid of this examination just like UPSR and my piano examinations...for piano examinations, i can take it again if i failed but for PMR, its only one shot... and if i failed that shot, i can't to redo that shot again...its like once in a lifetime...this is what i'm scare of...maybe its because the pressure from my mom...i know she always have high hopes on me...maybe that's the thing that make me so stress out...maybe that's the thing that i'm afraid of...i'm afraid of letting her down...

on the other hand of course, i wish time will go faster....so that i can go through the examination faster and release myself from this stressful atmosphere even for a while...so that i can do whatever i want (but there's limit of course)